sick of trying Lyrics
- Genre:Alternative
- Year of Release:2023
Lyrics
I relapsed for the last time
Hoping that I overdose and I fucking flatline
Said I was done yeah I said that the last time
Coke in my gums when I said this the last line
Drugs became a past time popping shit to pass time
I'd rather be faded nigga don't even ask why
I'm inebriated gotta bottle on standby
So intoxicated I can't even fucking stand right
I'm so devastated I don't ever hold my head high
Nothing to be proud of I am never satisfied
I been popping downers so my urges gratified
But no amount of shit I take will ever justify
Or compensate for all the shit that's been bottled up inside
Deserve to be chastised I can't do nothing right
Hoping this the last night so I no longer have to fight
Let the drugs do what they will lead me to the light
Hoping I'm no longer here when I open up my eyes
I am nothing special or important hoping that I die
I am on several different substances coping with this strife
I am sick of trying sick of fighting for hope in this life
Feel like I'm dying I won't fight I just close my eyes
Brains frying now I'm crying sweet release I found bliss
Tears of joy I rejoice as my life nears its end
Didn't have a fair shot but that's just how it is
Suffered from the start so much pain from within
I was bound for the floor never had a chance to win
It's impressive how long that I put up with this shit
Been neglected so long now my patience running thin
Weight of this depression made fold break and bend
If I could start over and do it all again
With a fair shot I'd take that shot at my fucking head
Save myself from the sorrow this is no way to live
I'd do myself a favor slit my throat with razor
I have been forsaken I don't know of a savior
Wouldn't even save me because of my behavior
Have mercy on my soul in this life I have paid up
Hoping for a paradise but I know it's made up
Feel I deserve peace yuh not asking for too much
Will I find peace while deceased I'll know soon enough
Will I find meaning to this mess or was it just for none
I been looking for a sign hoping someone show me some
Or way to escape all this pain that's been dealt upon
I been looking for a sign hoping someone show me some
Or way to escape all this pain that's been dealt upon