no escape Lyrics

Thought if I ran fast enough the sadness would not catch up to me

Now I'm exhausted and I'm sadder than I'll ever be

The drugs temporally helped me escape reality

Got hit with real life when I started my sobriety

There's no escape my thoughts are like a fucking maze

The only way out is a bullet in the brain

Been hurting so long you'd think I'm used to the pain

But it keeps getting worse every night and everyday

Have to take accountability only myself to blame

Somehow I'm deserving of all this because my fucking ways

But there is so much that my heart can fucking take

I go to sleep at night hoping that I never wake

As if death is the answer but it's probably the same

I won't know until I try I really wanna die

Please don't ask me why to many reasons to explain

I can't even lie all I do is cry

Biggest lie said I'm doing fine

Or I'm doing well I'm living in hell

Guess you couldn't tell

Well how could you know

Hide the hurt behind a smile I'd rather not let it show

I don't need your pity

I don't want your sympathy

Wish I wasn't sober drugs always been the remedy

But I had to quit the drugs cuz they'd be the end of me

Ironic cuz I wanna die

Guess I don't wanna spend my last moments getting high

If I had to choose I'd want my mama right up by my side

Holding onto me saying everything gone be alright

I'd be satisfied with life

Until then I feel the strife

Turned into the antichrist

Got no hope of paradise

Hope my hell on earth suffice

Undeserving sacrifice

Thought if I ran fast enough the sadness would not catch up to me

Now I'm exhausted and I'm sadder than I'll ever be

The drugs temporally helped me escape reality

Got hit with real life when I started my sobriety

There's no escape my thoughts are like a fucking maze

The only way out is a bullet in the brain

Been hurting so long you'd think I'm used to the pain

But it keeps getting worse every night and everyday

Have to take accountability only myself to blame

Somehow I'm deserving of all this because my fucking ways

But there is only so much that my heart can fucking take

I go to sleep at night hoping that I never wake

Thought if I ran fast enough the sadness would not catch up to me

Now I'm exhausted and I'm sadder than I'll ever be

The drugs temporally helped me escape reality

Got hit with real life when I started my sobriety