i hate myself Lyrics

You may think lowly of me I think even lower

Collapsing from the weight that's pressed against my shoulder

Everyday passes I dread getting older

Heart like arctic it don't get much colder

Trying to be the change I wanna see but have no courage

My anxiety rids me of the ability to flourish

Haven't ate in days I've been feeling malnourished

Haven't slept either I've been really fucking sleep deprived

Deprived of all emotions except despair I really want to die

I can't even do that right trust me I've already tried

Suicidal failures make me think it's for some reason

Maybe I couldn't go through with it because I have some meaning

It's nice to think that way but I know I have no meaning

Looking for a will to live can't find none I've been pleading

There's no higher power that I'm choosing to believe in

Do not resuscitate if I stop breathing

Filled with so much hate I kinda love the feeling

Content with sorrow happiness it isn't appealing

Grown familiar with misery it is all I know

People think that all is well because I fail to let it show

I don't want your pity or your fake concern

Nobody really cares hard truth to accept

But once you do you'll find that isolation is the best

I really hate myself all my life I've been a mess