cocaine or suicide Lyrics

I relapsed again

Who am I to think that I could actually fucking quit

I am just a junkie yeah I am a degenerate

Kill me I'm a dope fiend that won't amount to shit

It's all that I've heard I came to the terms

When will I learn probably after I burn

My self worth that is unheard

Hells on earth what'd I do to deserve

I'm the black sheep of the mother fucking herd

People try to talk to me it gets on my nerves

If you don't understand then you won't comprehend

Don't ask why I want to die if you don't lament

You don't know what it's like to feel this discontent

Anguish and suffering that is what i am condemned

I don't want to live

I'm sick of this shit

You don't need a reason

I'm ending it quick

I've looked for reasons

To not call it's quits

My hope is depleting

I wanna stop breathing

I sought out for help I have begged and I pleaded

Nobody was there it's like they didn't believe it

This not for attention this is my disposition

My life story fucked and that was all that was written

I don't give a fuck if you say that you'd miss me

The ones who say that when I need them they are missing

It's not about you and it never ever has been

Do you think your fake concern is gonna make a fucking difference

Does it help you sleep better at night knowing you tried to help

I don't want your fucking pity you can go fuck yourself

Suicide is what I think about and fucking nothing else

Hell is where I reside I did this to myself

Debating do I wanna take all of these drugs that's on the shelf

Or grab designer belt and fucking hang myself

Fresh to death I'd be going out in style

I'm a wreck been this way for awhile

I'm a mess I am so vile

Full of stress and it just piles

Been depressed now I'm throwing in the towel

It could happen any day

Everyday I decay

I don't like to sit and wait

Do drugs to accelerate

Speed up my death date

And finally seal my fate