pain is my best friend Lyrics

Now you're gone I sit in silence

Hurts too much to be reminded

All the pain i tried to hide it

She told me that she didn't mind it

You did the same you were just lying

But can't explain or justify it

Escape the blame and somehow turn it

My feelings you were not concerned with

The way you treated me confirmed this

Made me feel like I'm a burden

The things you say make me discouraged

I just wanted you to flourish

Now I wanna see you to suffer

I'll make sure I'm so determined

Often times I sit and wonder

If i'm even fucking worth it

I've been down in the gutters

I feel like I'm fucking worthless

Now I'm sitting here hurting

What did I do to deserve this

I just really wanna end it

I wanna die it'll be tremendous

I am full of resentment

Got a hatred towards existence

Rid me of this life sentence

In my mind I've been imprisoned

I've been looking for an exit

While the pain became my best friend

Turned my heart into a weapon