Slowly Breaking Lyrics

Everyday's another battle I'm fighting for peace of mind

I've been walking through the gallows the shadows creeping behind

So I'm lighting up this candle to guide me out the abyss

Swear this pain's too much to handle when happiness is eclipsed

So I wish upon a star for the suffering to desist

Only if I could restart and repair my heart to be fixed

Loneliness and hopelessness both together should not be mixed

I been folding under pressure popping pills and taking swigs

I ain't proud of what I've done I swear it hurts to reminisce

I don't know who I become every time this depression hits

Push away the ones I love and lose myself in solitude

I don't know who I can trust cause no one ever follows through

So I loathe inside my crib and lose myself within these walls

I'm sorry for my sins I know I'm basking in my flaws

I hope that you forgive me cause I can't forgive myself

I know I'm slowly slipping down this hole right straight to hell oh no

I feel so alone feel so broken

My soul is turning cold now it's frozen

I try to open up but I break down

I need to sober up no I ain't proud

Tryna' run away from my sorrows

Wish I could numb the pain with this bottle

I need someone to save me from myself

My faith is slowly breaking I might fail

Everyday's another puzzle I struggle to figure out

And this pain in me is subtle it's coupled with fear and doubt

So much trouble in my soul got me desperate to say goodbye

Wondering if letting go is the answer to all my whys

I been dealing with this misery killing me ever slow

I been searching for my healing by sinking way deep below

Knowing damn well that these drugs are corrupting my broken heart

Know you can tell that these cuts got me bleeding mentally scarred

If I fall will you be there to lift me up from my lows

If I knocked and rang your doorbell would you leave the door closed

Would you let me in and shelter me from my own past

Would you never leave and still hold onto my cold hands

Do you trust who I am and who I'm destined to be

Will you please help me plan to set myself free from me

From the chains of my tears and all the guilt in my heart

I pray that I persevere to lead the world out the dark

Amen

I feel so alone feel so broken

My soul is turning cold now it's frozen

I try to open up but I break down

I need to sober up no I ain't proud

Tryna' run away from my sorrows

Wish I could numb the pain with this bottle

I need someone to save me from myself

My faith is slowly breaking I might fail