Slowly Dying Lyrics

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There's no one else to blame, I cause my own solitude

I'm the reason why my heart is ripped apart in two

Looked in the mirror and that person there I hardly knew

Like who the fuck am I? And who have I been talking to

Cause these voices in my head are always talking back

Conversing with myself cause I feel like I'm all I have

And I'mma' take the blame, ain't tryna' point no fucking fingers

I can't escape the rain, no matter what, pain always lingers

I stay away from everyone I love

No matter what I do I still feel like I'm not enough

Oh would you give a fuck if I just chose to end it all

And if you do then how the fuck can you just watch me fall

Can't you see my walls are closing in

Can't you hear the pain and suffering I'm holding in

I need help, I'm just afraid to ask

I'm not longer in control, I'm just waiting to crash

I'm so fucked up, I know

I have been dying slow

Please take my pain, away

I can no longer stay

I isolate myself cause I'm embarrassed of this shit

Cause everybody knows I hate the fact that I exist

I let my secrets out and everybody knows the truth

They know my suicidal tendencies are self-induced

I know there's no excuse why I should wanna' end my life

I'm well aware the grass is greener on the other side

I should be grateful right

So where's the disconnect

When I feel happy why does sadness always interject

It's like my misery is predetermined

I try and smile but deep inside I'm always weak and hurtin

I know the devil's near and always lurkin

I feel his presence every time the sun begins emerging

I been searching for so fucking long

For a light that will remain permanently on

But that light forever seems to fade

Perhaps the dark is just impossible to evade

I'm so fucked up, I know

I have been dying slow

Please take my pain, away

I can no longer stay