Deep Skies Lyrics

It ain't no secret

I'm always vocal with the way I feel

I don't wanna' be alive depression's gonna' get me killed

Family says I need help

But I don't think they fucking get it

What I feel is carved inside my heart and it's deeply embedded

I, I, I wish it was that simple

I wish this made me stronger but instead its left me crippled

It's hard for me to smile

And when I do it's fabricated

I'm slowly breaking down

And my happiness is barricaded

I fucking hate this shit

Numb the pain by taking sips

Every time I'm sober I just

Wanna' slit my fucking wrists

Hoping I will bleed to death

Choking 'till I lose my breath

Father, please forgive me, but I can't go on within my flesh

Death seems like the only route

Only place where peace is found

Mom and Dad I love you, and I'm sorry If I let you down, but I can't take no more

My heart is fucking torn

I wish this was a nightmare, wish I was never born

I can hardly feel now

Every single day I'm going numb

I can only hope the end is near now

I don't wanna' stay, I wanna' run

No one understands these tears I shed now

No one understands the hell I'm in

Honestly just wish that I was dead now

Cannot bare this misery within

And dear Family

I know it's hard for you to listen

But this is how I feel, I hope that I can be forgiven

I feel imprisoned

And I don't know how to escape

Yeah I'ma victim of my own self-defeat and hate

I,I,I wish I wasn't fucked up

I,I,I wish that I could look up

I,I,I wish that I was lying to you

Wish that I was sharing smiles instead of fucking crying to you

I'm sorry for it all

But this broken heart is raw

I ain't got no where to turn to and I don't know who to call

Got no choice but to crawl

I can't stand up on my feet

Every time I fucking fall man I no longer wanna' breathe

Feel my soul getting weak

And my heart's getting heavy

I'm begging on my knees for the lord to come and get me

And when my time comes

All I ask is don't forget me

My purpose was fulfilled, I'm no longer feeling empty

I can hardly feel now

Every single day I'm going numb

I can only hope the end is near now

I don't wanna' stay, I wanna' run

No one understands these tears I shed now

No one understands the hell I'm in

Honestly just wish that I was dead now

Cannot bare this misery within