Broken Lyrics

I always question why I feel so broken

Sometimes I feel like I'm losing hope and

I just pray that I can find me

You see me smile but things ain't always what they might seem

It's been a while since I felt peace

This depression has been spreading like a damn disease

I hope I find a cure before this shit is too late

Grab the rope and end my life like Saddam Hussein

And people got the fucking nerve to judge

That's why it's hard for me to vent and don't know who to trust

And truth be told I can't even trust myself

Contemplating suicide this shit is not good for my health, so pathetic

But you ain't seen the tears I've shedded

It breaks my fucking heart to see the path in which I'm headed

Cause I'm lost, and death has never felt so close

Ain't no one else to blame cause this the path in which I chose

So forgive me

Please forgive me for my selfish thoughts

Apologize for my mistakes and the pain I've caused

I've tried my best but my best is not enough

I'm tryna' hold on but I don't think I'm strong enough

I'm slowly dying

I'm slowly dying and I'm breaking down

The day I'm lying underground I'll be safe and sound

And if you know me

I know that shit hurts to hear

But I've grown weak and no longer can I persevere

No longer can I persevere

And I can't listen to advice cause that shits not sincere

So many years I been fighting with my demons

Used every ounce of strength till' this day I can't defeat 'em

Dreaming of the day that I find peace within my freedom

Cause I don't want to wake up I'm so tired of fucking breathing

Tired of living life cause I don't understand the meaning

And I've been losing sight of what is love cause love is so deceiving

Said love is so deceiving

J. Cole said it best people change like seasons

It's the truth either better or for worse

And I'm thankful for my family but it's like a precious curse

Cause it hurts

When that love is not reciprocated

What you once saw in someone becomes pixelated

I fucking hate it, the person I once knew I crave it

I wish I never met you you're the reason why I'm breaking

You're the reason why I'm aching every day

You're the reason why I packed my bags and had to get away

You're the reason why I'm cracked in half and haven't been the same

You're the reason why I'm sad and always drenched within the rain

You're the reason why I had a purpose

Ever since I lost you I feel fucking worthless

I hope your life from here on out is perfect

Ain't no connection left between us like we lost our service

I wish this was a nightmare

But then I realize that I'm still standing right here

The same ground which I fell upon repeatedly

Around the same love that has always believed in me

Through all my downfalls and struggles I've encountered

Never left my side when my life was going downward

When I had no strength in myself they gave me power

To never let that light die inside through my darkest hour

Through my darkest hour

I'mma sprout more than ever like a lotus flower

I'll take my wounds and I'll turn it into wisdom

I'll become a hero to the children that are victims, I promise you

No matter what just know you're not alone

Cause deep inside we all come from a broken home

But that's what made us, that's what made us who we are

Just know there's beauty buried deep inside of every scar

Heavens far but your angels are close by

Grab your loved ones cherish them and hold tight

But don't cry, hold it in, homie don't cry

Everything will be okay you'll be just fine

Have faith, and put your trust in God

Believe in yourself and you will beat the odds

Take all your pain and embrace all your flaws

And you gon' realize you ain't broken after all

You ain't broken after all

You ain't broken after all