Several Years Lyrics

Lately all I feel is pain

Feels like my heart doesn't beat the same

I wanna give up and I just feel stuck

In a life that I know I can not change

I'm really lonely and feel drained

Sometimes I feel like a mistake

I just sit and dwell in my trauma

My life's full a problems

I feel like I might break

Tried to move on but I just can't

Break down after break down and some days

I wish I could run away, just to escape

And feel at ease even if it means one day

Where did my life go wrong

I was a happy teen and now I'm an adult

Who sad as hell and always at a loss

No one tell I'm drowning in my thoughts

I'm still lost tryna find purpose

After all of these years I'm still searching

Hope you forgive me for being a burden

Self love is something that I'm still learning

And I know I lie when I tell you I'm fine

Cuz no body knows I'm struggling inside

Sorry if you see me cry, It's just I finally realize

It's been several years

Since I felt okay, I'm losing my way and

It's been several years

Since I've been on meds, I feel so depressed and

It's been several years

Since I felt alive, there's no tears to cry and

It's been several years

Since I had a friend, they came and went

Lately, I feel so depressed

Tried to get help but I'm still a mess

I don't ever rest, I guess, I'm stressed

Got my head down, hands gripping my neck

Did I take my last breath

Did I walked my last step

I'm alive but inside I am dead

Look I lied, I'm not fine

Cuz my mind Is a wreck

I saw pictures of me in elementary

I don't remember teachers ever telling me

Id be a adult who senses people's energy

Being an empath attracts those who lack empathy

When I look back, my past

Shows me bad memories

Plus It's so sad, i had

To withstand, everything

All For my last, ex damn

Thought you'd stand, next to me

You stab my back, and that

Hurt me bad mentally

It definitely changed me but I forgive you

I understand now that you had your own Issues

Your fear of abandonment, really convinced you

That you weren't enough, for the love I would give you

I tried, but I broke myself tryna fix you

And I feel hurt that you couldn't commit to

Me or the love I would give you

Nobody knows what I been thru

It's been several years

Since I felt okay, i'm loosing my way and

It's been several years

Since I've been on meds, i feel so depressed and

It's been several years

Since I felt alive, there's no tears to cry and

It's been several years

Since I had a friend, they came and went