Drowning Lyrics

I wish I can numb this pain

I thought by now I won't complain

I got the cash with half the fame

Lost half my heart and kept the veins

We had our spark and lost our flame

I tried to talk, had none to say

I want the love, you never gave

Was hurting me your only aim

You shot my heart, I bled out hate

Cuz tho you left, the trauma stayed

I wish the past, would go away

But I guess gotta live with it

Times changed, I don't feel different

Despite the hurdles in my life I kept my vision alive

I had no one on my side, yet I still did it

I'm missing the old me, talking pre-depression

Where I felt alive and I had a connection

Now I'm dead inside cuz I lost my direction

I don't put my wall down for my own protection

And I'm tired of people using me

People lie what do you believe

I know people see the truth in me

And I know one day you will see

That being true was a tool for me

I be sticking to myself,

I don't need nobody else

Just relief, from this trauma

That keeps on ruining me

Cuz lately Im loosing sleep

And nobody's getting thru to me

It's Cuz It

Feels like I'm losing sleep

I want my mind at ease

Feels like I'm losing me

I wanna find relief

Feels like I need to breath

I think I'm into deep, now

I'm drowning in my thoughts

Drowning, by myself I'm

Drowning, I need help I'm

Drowning, They can't tell I'm

Drowning, Ooo

I'm still here and still driven

People see me as a meal ticket

They get nothing, they can deal with it

I guess me and them were built different

I work for whatever I'm given

I been living inside of my room since I was fifteen

Making a bunch a songs hoping somebody gets me

I always felt alone and the feeling is sickening

When your expressing your pain and no one is listening

And life's hard to manage

I feel like I have a disadvantage

Since My childhood left me hella damaged

I don't know love because I never had it

Every relationship I'm in never lasted

Only toxic woman was all I attracted

I continuously fear having attachments

Honestly It was really hard getting past it

But it is what it is you get what you give

I wish I learned quicker, look, I probably did

Just didn't accept it

Inside of my mind is where my demons roam

I try to hide cuz they won't leave me alone

I overthink all of my mistakes on my own

I don't know where to go, it's cuz it

Feels like I'm losing sleep

I want my mind at ease

Feels like I'm losing me

I wanna find relief

Feels like I need to breath

I think I'm into deep, now

I'm drowning in my thoughts

Drowning, by myself I'm

Drowning, I need help I'm

Drowning, They can't tell I'm

Drowning, Ooo