Sorry To Myself Lyrics

I'm sorry to myself

I'm sorry to myself, myself

I'm tired of blaming everybody else

When i should be blaming myself

When i lit the match, that turned my life into hell

But this time i don't wanna yell

I tried to save them, but i end up being left in the dust

Sacrifices made for us

I ignored all your red flags so now my heart sits on a crutch

Guess i'm just desperate for love

Sick of being numb

Sick of comparing myself to the person i was

I hate who i am, hate who i become

Laying in my bed and it's hard to get up

Cuz i'm feeling fed up

I'm tired of all the pressure that's been coming down on me

Nobody in my life says that their proud of me

I feel depressed, they say i'm not allowed to be, damn

Money doesn't fix the problem

I constantly feel like i'm drowning

My confidence tanked i allowed it

These fakes love to claim that their about it

I avoid them, i can't be around them

Can't count on no one, i'll be honest

Cuz all of my scars and my traumas

It's hard for me to see the option

Where i can trust people so i just

Rather to stay myself, i do this shit often

This shit is exhausting (exhausting me)

Hate myself, hate myself

Blame myself, blame myself

I'm stuck in this infinite loop

Go thru this always so this isn't new

I'm tryna get thru, fighting to change

I'm getting sick of being stuck in my ways

And times going fast, months passing like days

I feel like the black sheep breaking out the matrix

Televised lies, got me feeling hella anxious

I'm tryna save lives, y'all tryna get famous

I'm tryna find god, he's the one that can save us

He gave me the sign and i went ignored it

Now i feel depressed & bask in my misfortunes

I'm hoping, that i escape this

Hate the misery i stay with, I'm (Yeah e yeah)

I'm sorry to myself

I'm sorry to myself

I'm sorry to myself

Myself

Cuz i can't let go of this

Cuz i'm falling into deep

And it feels like my life's is just falling apart

Falling apart