FRAMED PHOTOS Lyrics

For as long as I've breathed

I have felt deceived

I have felt deceased

For as long as I've breathed

I could hardly find sleep

And I hated my dreams

And I hate what I've seen

Why are my feelings so deep

I hate how my parents have left things handled

They smothered my candle

But if they found my body hangin they would both be dismantled

I remember walking into class tardy

So all the teachers and the students disregard me

Not one of them muthafuckas was there to disarm me

When afton hoyt izatt tried to harm me

Or when my mother and my father tried to charm me with the drugs

Them same thangs I was supposed to stay away from

So young

I remember when my dad

Had me bite down on a mfin rag

Just to cover up my laugh In the night

When he had me smoking on that draft at 9

Yeah I'm stuck on the past at times

And it seems to ruin my life

It seems to ruin my life

They was snortin oxycodone

Off my framed photos

Fucked up homies made me stay solo

I don't pray no moe

I don't pray no moe

For as long as I've breathed

I have felt deceived

I have felt deceased

For as long as I've breathed

I could hardly find sleep

And I hated my dreams

And I hate what I've seen

Why are my feelings so deep

My fat dad was always glued to his sheets

Loungin in his briefs

Until you questioned his beliefs

Then he'd be jumping to his feet

And askin if you really want the beef

Mf I'm your son you ain't no longer in the streets

Matter of fact, you was a rat and a theif

You said because of that to look over my back, I had no sense of relief

I don't get my hopes up, I hold em underground

Hopin that they drown and they don't make a sound

I know the shit that they did to me

The innocence that they ripped from me

I aint ever had no escape

Reality been shoved in my face

Only Smoked a little Jay

But it never really kept it at bay

I swear my mama od'd almost every day

Look up at her face and it's blank

She would only play if I got them fuckin pills out the safe

Then she'd cry to me the same day

Is guilt even real inside yo brain?

Mane what the fuck do you think doin this to yo kid

Engraved in my brain that they don't want me if I ain't got shit

I hate all these feelings I try to keep hidden

They swell and they swarm till I'm driven

To think that happiness is somethin I cannot be given

For as long as I've breathed

I have felt deceived

I have felt deceased

For as long as I've breathed

I could hardly find sleep

And I hated my dreams

And I hate what I've seen

Why are my feelings so deep