FACELESS PANIC PRAYERS Lyrics

Imma keep that blade upon my waist in case my father brave

Lookin at his face and askin why the fuck a robber pray

He gone keep on thinkin he's a proper Saint

But his credit card a chopper for the oxys on his copper plate

Momma said she love me but she guilt me into sobbin stains

I had problems as a child u know I tried stoppin rain

I ain't talkin water but I'm talkin about broader thangs

But I couldn't so I got to fuckin stompin thangs

Brother was poppin pills cause it's hard to cope

He got em from his psycho father bro

Suicide and addiction runs in this pond below

So if that cord broke, don't hope for another stronger rope

Head forward and push the envelope

I'm resilient like I'm tanjuro

Cuz life's been fucked since the water broke

Dad dizzy from the surgery

Mom busy in emergency

Cash sittin on a burner seat

Cuz billin ain't got no courtesy

These pills killed with some urgency

Left my parents spent like currency

All visions causin frictions and it's hurtin me

I see parents that don't listen

Mind corrupted by addiction

Meds cloudin up they vision

And all of my depression

Manifested as aggression

Hard to count my blessins

When infested by infection

Caused by years of stressin

I've been thinkin I was cursed since I was 8

Dark figure lookin at me when it got late

Hopin that it wouldn't be my fate

When I'm frozen lookin up at at its face

But it didn't have a face

And both my parents ways

Went to shit when I came to this place

Idk what I saw in my bed every night

But I begged can u please keep on the fucking light

Oh I'm sick of the fight

Brought a stick, he brought a knife

I'm always sittin in his sights

I say he like he is God but he is life

And I'm hopin he gets bright

And stops scopin on my spine

I feel broken all the time

I don't know why I never feel right

I remember prayin as a kid

Felt like sprayin in the wind

To a creator that ain't payed for all his sins

Got to kickin like I'm fedor

It ain't favorin my shins

Damn I'm chippin away shavins of my skin

Im a fightin demon slayer

Boy there's layers to this shit