SAVIOR COMPLEX Lyrics

I don't want to be like anyone inside my family.

I don't want to fake, I don't want to be so damaging

I don't wanna manipulate anyone for fantasy

I don't want to hurt or stay with all this stupid panicking

I want everyone to feel like they have someone

even if I feel like I have no one

I still have these soggy poems

At my best and worst when I have wrote em

I just wanna know em

I dream to be a pillar of strength

To these people that be lookin at life, and wanna shorten the length

But I get it's hard to see my strength

When I show my true emotions

I've been drownin in the ocean

Grippin on tight to a floaty that these seaguls have been pokin

But what's my purpose if I get to bailin

When I observe someone else's arms flailin

I struggle to take my worth further

I might just give someone my life preserver

And find they on the run for murder

I guess I'm not a fast learner

Always hurt by the savior complex that I nurture

Tryina fix toxins like a catalytic converter

Feelin like an underpaid server

Gettin cursed for the taste of a burger

What the hell you want? I'll put your face on a burner

Sick of savin others while I break from disorder

Almost fell puttin coins in that well, and that well rested

Can't remember the last time I was well rested

Keep on truckin like a snail I cannot fail to keep my shell tested

Cause shits been tryina break me like I'm hell destined

People act like they bailed but they well invested

Focus best on priority

Feel like feelin anxious the majority

And the rest is minority

One day all this stress will be less from recordin these

Songs that I've been conjuring

Goals that I've been conquering

Lately I've been wonderin.

Am I really real

All this static that is sealed

In my ribs, that's the panic that I feel

I am everything that's ever lived or ever killed

Confined to a deal to put briueses on my heels

To appeal to another man's 5 star meals

While I hope I can pay all my bills

Thinkin bout this cycle starts to give me fuckin chills

When will all these thoughts fuckin end

When won't I worry bout the time that I spend

When will I treat myself the way I treat a friend

When will they receive the messages that I send

I don't know

But I won't retreat and I won't bend

I'll keep fiending through the mud

Chasin everything that I love

Wanna throw shade, u have to block out the sun