lost & found Lyrics

I been tryanna move militant been a leader since birth

Yeah i know my worth

A soldier with discipline even when I feel hurt

See the blood through my shirt

Use this pain as my medicine man im tryanna get served

That should calm my nerves

I'm guilty that's evident i've been hit with this curse

I've been running from her

I'm dying of thirst, holy water wont fix it

I've been running from church

and crucifying these demons

I see good in everybody I guess that's my problem

Heart gold from the start hate turned it to copper

Four cornered room and a candle i'm tryanna fly

Outer body living is you ready to die?

Live in isolation, why should I socialize

That shit comes with betrayal man I don't even trust God

I want someone to hit me like what the fuck you been doing?

How the fuck is you living?

My momma need to check me, who the fuck you been screwing?

Why you moving so different?

I've been tripping off the drank like what the fuck is you stupid?

You gotta cut it, you trippin

Hospital by myself to this life i've been losing

Lately that's how im feeling

Fighting battles that been going on since morning cartoons

They took my innocence with em

I turned into a bender of patron and my doom

A classic alcohol ending

Took a toll on my health i'm in the emergency room

With nobody to vent to

In love with the thought that I might get called up soon

Yeah my ticket is pending

Fight or flight blood rushing my demise is alive

Still I rise concussed from the evils of life

Feeling like I'm in touch with oppositions of light

Shit I might just run to the writings of christ

Down to my last bit of crippling hope

Hanging from a string of a miraculous rope

That I could use to end it all with if that's what I chose

But i'm here for a reason and for that I won't go

I want someone to hit me like what the fuck you been doing?

How the fuck is you living?

My momma need to check me, who the fuck you been screwing?

Why you moving so different?

I've been tripping off the drank like what the fuck is you stupid?

You gotta cut it, you tripping

Hospital by myself to this life i've been losing

Lately that's how I'm feeling

If I could navigate my life, i'll coordinate it with rhymes

Living by the metronome one bar at a time

The only way I feel at peace is when the music is on

It used to be with a patron but now that feeling is gone

My mental health was declining like the hoes when I call

Truth is I ain't been right since the beginning of fall

My karma was beginning to remind me of trust

Being broken by abuse that my words have caused

Living with anxiety that fucked up my will

To live no desire to touch or even feel

You know shit got real when the earth stood still

And sent chills down my back saying evil is here

Waking up screaming being touched by the dead

Something's out to get me, I was losing my head

Chillin with misery so I pushed ya'll away

Im at war with myself till I see ya'll again

I want someone to hit me like what the fuck you been doing?

How the fuck is you living?

My momma need to check me, who the fuck you been screwing?

Why you moving so different?

I've been tripping off the drank like what the fuck is you stupid?

You gotta cut it, you tripping

Hospital by myself to this life i've been losing

Lately that's how I'm feeling