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Hard to explain, but existence is pain but life's beautiful

Love it when I'm with you, but hate the things I do to you

Still got bad habits, but ain't doing what I used to do

Lying to myself but I'm trynna stay true to you

Been a very long time since I've felt this alone

Maybe the blames on me, I never pick up my phone

Hate to admit it, but since I quit the pills it's been much harder to cope

It's still hard to accept that this all part of my road

But I'm trynna fight the sadness

Putting goggles on my hood, and some fossils on my jacket

Still feels surreal that people know me from my rappin'

Used to hope that this would happen when I was known for poppin' tablets

Trappin' magic to some addicts, but the karma got me back

Hard to count all of the times that people stabbed me in my back

See my brother in my dreams, but I'll never get him back

Scratching "HORID" on this mirror while I reflect on the past

Name tattooed on my skin, memories tattooed on my soul

Taking every ounce of strength in me to not go lose control

Word tattooed on my skin, memories tattooed on my brain

Taking everything I've got in me to not just go insane

Lighting up this Girl Scout, staring at the stars

Fire in my eyes and some dreams up in my heart

Thinking up some bars to the beating of my heart

Trynna heal all of my scars, I've been living in a mask

I've been living in the past, it's sitting on my heart

Thought I had something to prove, always taking things too far

Scary what you'll do to try and find out who you are

So now I just be working hard to turn this pain into some art

People asking me "What's wrong?", don't know where to start

So I'll just finish my drink, force a smile and then a laugh

Pour some out for HORID and no matter where you are

One things for certain and it's that you're always living in my heart

And I wear my heart on my sleeve, next to this Stoney patch

Always been myself, that's the reason that they know my raps

Don't point out my flaws if you aren't thankful for my strengths

They say they wanna see you blow up then try drag you to their depth

Dropping blood sweat and tears, to get me to this stage

So I won't be giving up until they're dropping on a stage

I'm honest to the page, don't give a fuck bout all the games

I do this to give a voice to everyone who feels the same

At 17 I was a fiend, moving points to feed my habit

Now I'm living for this rappin' it just fills me with a passion

I really can't describe, guess it gives me a distraction

And a gift to somehow create something good from all my sadness

Always seem to be able to find the beauty in something tragic

There's a method to my madness, depressed and then I'm manic

Stressed and then I'm happy, was dependence on the xannies

The reason that relaxing is just not one of my talents

Some friends turned into family, some bridges turned to ashes

Everybody's grown up now, I don't know when it happened

Still going through this weed like it's going out of fashion

Manifesting my success, man I know it's gonna happen ay