Letter To Tom Lyrics

It made me who I am I gotta take 'em where I started

Remember when I used to leave the room and hear 'em laughing

Living out a suitcase with no money I was starving

People I grew up with would see me and walk right past me

Now they beg for my for attention

Post traumatic stress, I've seen some things I'll never mention

Rap to vent all my depression, this my form of self expression

Every time I'm in my hometown feel the pressure and the tension

Still got ten toes down, but most my people in the sky

Snakes smiling in my face, I see the evil in their eye

If they knew how many died, they'd be thankful that we're still here living

Little brother isn't blood but he's my spitting image

Said that we'd be smiling, different cities pumping billies

Crying happy tears, 'cos we really fucking did it

Loyal as they come and have been from the beginning

You had it harder since a kid, but you've never played the victim

And trust me brother, that's what makes a winner

I remember starving empty cupboards in the kitchen

Struggling with addiction, dirty cups that we were sipping

Mix Phenergan with the Rikodiene to block out all our feelings

Mixing Vyvanse with speed trying to fight the fatigue

Don't talk about it much just make it rhyme on a beat

We were trap-house living wasn't much of a home

Barely survived our teens, now you've got son of your own

Said you're gonna break the cycle in my heart I never doubted you

Don't say it to your face enough, I'm so fucking proud of you

I'm sorry I don't visit much it's been a minute

But it gives me hope and inspiration when I see you with him

Drew died didn't think I'd live another year

Washing Valium down with whiskey so my vision wasn't clear

My brother in the dirt, had to face my biggest fear

You didn't leave my side once, never judged all of the tears

That we cried, they could probably fill the ocean

Struggling with addiction, mania, psychosis

But you always stayed solid, always stayed honest

I've got your back until my last day brother that's a promise

Didn't wanna tell you 'bout the times that I was suicidal

It's like you knew somehow, you wouldn't leave my side

It's weird to reflect on, life's different without Drew

But without your support bro I'd be in the ground too

Way too real, the fake could never understand

Always something in the way, we had to find a better plan

Make the best out our situation doing what we can

Since you were sixteen years old brah I've seen you as a man

When we lost Drew the way you took it inspired me

Made me find strength, I couldn't even find sobriety

And that weren't the only demon you were fighting with

Your blood brother locked up in a prison, but in spite of it

You always showed compassion to my situation

A lot of them know Salty, but you know Hamish

Wanted nothing in return except my love and respect

So no matter what happens you're my brother 'til death

One of a kind you're a different breed

Partly blame myself every time you're sipping Rikodiene

How could I blame you when I know half the shit you've seen

Was 20 when I watched our brother die but you were in your teens

Hurts to see you in a trap, but I know you've got a kid to feed

And life in that city's bleak, the cost of living isn't cheap

The profit flipping g's equals like a milli' streams

I miss when life was simple but nostalgia's always bitter sweet

Trying to make a million, I'm sorry for the distance

But who am I to tell you change if I can't offer something different

Even on my worst days you'd always come and visit

So no matter who I cut off I still keep you in my visions

I know my memories fucked, but I don't forget where I'm from

Fuck it then, I guess I'll call this Letter To Tom, done