Chels Lyrics

Fuck

I'm used to this pain and I'm losing myself

Where should I go when there's nobody else

How should I feel when I'm put on the shelf

When I tried to do good but you put me through hell

I question myself like I'm fucked in my brain

Cuz you made me believe that I'm goin insane

Tryna cover your faults and your lies and project them on me

Cuz your guilty and can't take the blame

Yet you lied to my face over and over again

Told me those fuckers were only your friends

I'm humiliated and it's your creation

You were in my bed yet you were talking to him

My sister caught you and explained it to me

No wonder the two of you bitches had beef

You both had a rep of the constant deceit

And hoes will be hoes so no need to compete

I gave you conditions don't fuck with my trust

We know how that shit lasted up to a month

It's sad that your loyalty is only a front

So you get what you want while you fuck with my gut

And I'm sick to my stomach because of that shit

I dealt with the screaming and immature fits

Then I tried to heal you and gave you a life

Without asking for nothing and this what I get

And I understand we ain't mentally straight

But that's no damn excuse to keep driving the stake in my back

Cuz you know I was there for you always

And I pulled you closer but you pushed away

You'd make me feel bad for my mental conditions

From trust issues given from those other bitches

I thought you were different

You made your decision

And I should've listened but now I'm imprisoned

Now fuck what you do

Now fuck what you say

To get where you are you would lie to my face

You're telling your family and friends all these lies

Cuz you can't take the guilt and that shit ain't okay

And it kills me inside you still wanted your ex

Cuz he cheated and broke you then made you depressed

But I put you first and I stuck out my neck

And I wasted my time trying to clean up his mess

Now look what it got me

I'm lonely as hell

While you fuck other dudes you don't know very well

And I hate it I dwell and I dwell in my head

I'm a ghost in the shell but I rather be dead

Cuz you fucked with my trust then you trade me for lust

And you wonder why I left your ass in the dust

Then you blame me for leaving

Kept giving me reasons to leave behind everything with you I loved

From the moment we parted till now I have cried

And I'm tryna to keep every emotion inside

But you shredded my pride then you twisted the knife

And it wasn't soon after my fucking dog died

No disrespect I wish you the best

Tryna find who you are through the drugs and the sex

I will heal and keep pushing persistent, no less

When I rise as a person you'll still be a mess

I'm finding my peace from the pain in my soul

Reconnecting with the me you controlled

You may be gone I was always alone

And you left me for dead with this cratering hole

I'm putting me first cuz it's what I deserve

And I'll bury your memory deep in the dirt

The most valuable lessons come with the most hurt

And I'll take them all with me the day I leave earth

Fuck

Your grandfather would be proud

God rest his soul