Proud of Myself Lyrics

Yea

I can't sleep

So I'm up late

Took a drive I'm hitting 90 on the interstate

I'm in between the point of fading but I'm so awake

Doing everything I can to keep my foot off the brakes

I got a fifth of vodka in the bag

Seals been cracked and the roads all black

Yea

I don't know where I'm at but I don't really care and I ain't ever looking back nah

Speaking of the past I let it consume me then it stunted my growth

I was in the deep end for a little too long

No matter what I tried I could never keep afloat

But right in the moment when I thought it was over death got a little closer then I started to choke

But a part of me knew this ain't how I'm gonna go

I tried to quit once not again let's go

Yuh

No one can tell me I didn't become something greater no matter the odds up against me

The doubts I was fed it was never enough to inhibit my path of ascending

It's crazy to me that a flower that's planted to die in the shade

Could eventually grow in mysterious ways to reach for the sun and to take in its rays

Yuh

That's what it feels like

I see all the growth in me every day

It's incredible God gave another chance to me when I was so ready to throw it away

Was tired of pain

Tired of letting myself get betrayed

Discovered my purpose and try to persuade the people just like me that aren't okay

That it's gonna be okay

It's gonna be hard but having it easy won't get you too far

Look at the legends

Look at the greats

They all got something they all can relate

And they never made it by making excuses but rather the lessons they learned through the pain

Success ain't the pay

Success is a measure of distance from where you had started to how far you came

Aye

I'll say it again success ain't a wage

It's all about making a change

These people think buying Bugattis and silicon bodies are taken with them to the grave

Nah

I'm proud of myself cuz no matter the changes my goal is the same

I show you my failures instead of my triumphs cuz being perfection is lame and I ain't ashamed

I'm proud of myself

I'm proud of myself

If nobody else then I'm proud of myself

Proud of myself

I did it alone didn't need nobodies help

I'm proud of myself

If nobody else I'll be proud of myself

Be proud of myself

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I'm grateful for all that have doubted me

Who thought I'd start rapping then crack under pressure to make me feel lesser

And hoping one day I'd get out it eventually

But I ain't about it

What once was an empty cup turned to a fountain

And all of these haters take wins by the hill but they never could fathom the process of building a mountain

I'm dodging the deals

Ain't got a particular crowd I appeal

I don't expect anybody to kneel

In all of the fakes I would rather stay real

Real like I'm DAX

Real like I'm VinJay

Real like NF

Real like MGK

Real like I'm Witt

Real like I'm logic

Real like Macdonald we're all the rap prophets and no one can stop it

We put our hearts and our souls in the music

While others reach fame and abuse it

Honestly I never plan to be famous I write for the purpose the passion is so therapeutic

I don't care if they think that it's stupid shoutout the people that I went to school with

Who thought that I'd never get close

When your goals are consistent with scoring a dose

And thanks for the hate

It wouldn't be there if I wasn't that great

I'll let you think that it's pulling me down

But sadly for you I don't give it much weight

Look at me now I've been making my name

I don't do it for clout I don't do it for fame

That ain't what I'm about I'm just making a change

It's a matter of time that the throne and the kingdom are claimed I've been saying

I'm proud of myself

I'm proud of myself

If nobody else then I'm proud of myself

Proud of myself

I did it alone didn't need nobodies help

I'm proud of myself

If nobody else I'll be proud of myself

Be proud of myself