I Could Lyrics

I could tell you how I feel but it wouldn't matter anyway

I could show you something real but I think we better stay this way

Cuz you, know that I'm a fuckin mess and I gotta lotta things on my plate

I know you say you understand but if you did then you would prolly never stay

I admit it to you, I got issues

Ain't that a phrase that every common human being uses

I've been gaslighted

I've been lied to

That don't negate from the fact that I really want you

I wanna hear your story

I wanna learn your ways

I wanna fall in love with what you do and what you say

I truly wanna see you grow in beauty everyday

Spoil you and show affection everything will be okay

But I'm broken and I'll prolly never trust the same

I don't blame you if you're like the rest and run away

To find another that ain't hurting in the same way

So I thought I'd say

I could tell you how I feel but it wouldn't matter anyway

I could show you something real but I think it's best we stay this way

Cuz you, know that I'm a fuckin mess and I gotta lotta things on my plate

I know you say you understand but if you did then you would prolly slip away

I wish that I could love without the parts that are damaged

And maybe I would have a wife or better bonds with my parents

I'd never second guess a friendship or distrust in your answers

But I let negativity spread through my body like cancer

And I'm trying to fix it but I'm at constant conflictions

Cant trust nobody's decisions because my heightened intuitions

And I stay overthinking lately my self esteems sinkin'

And I try to stop drinking, I can never find a reason but

I could give you the best

I wanna give you it all

I just want to feel wanted despite of all of my flaws

Cuz I'm trying I promise

And that I'll never give up

I just hope that giving all of me will be always be enough but

I could tell you how I feel but it doesn't matter anyway

I could show you something real but I think we better keep it this way

Cuz you, know I was a fuckin mess and I had a lotta things on my plate

I know you say you understand and now you do we have gone our own ways

Goodbye