heartbeat Lyrics

I feel better in my anger

I can take it out on someone else

And never feel a thing

I want them to feel what I feel

I've tried listening to my heartbeat

but it just beats, beats

And though it beats, I die

Pieces of me lay dormant inside for so long

That I don't know who I am anymore

Or who I've become

This anger lives in me and no one can take it away

I've tried letting it go

But it has traveled to every nerve in my body

And always found its way home

It's not something I'm proud of

I never mean to be mean

But as you get to know me

You get to know it

And it will destroy everything we have ever built

It's the darkest hole in my core

It has caused more hurt than it has helped

It has been a part of me for so long

That sometimes I even forget it exists

As much as I love helping someone

I love breaking them, understanding them

Getting to know them for who they are

And loving them for their flaws and imperfections

I know no one will fully love me for mine

I have hurt many who could

And I will meet many who could have

But my heart is empty and I search for no other than my happiness

So this heart will beat, and at the end of it all

Everyone will tell you how great I was

But I'm here to tell you I wasn't perfect, I was human

I loved and I hated, I destroyed and I created

Until my last breath