is this a dream? Lyrics

I want this dream to come to an end

What does it mean to be a friend?

This ghosts path that I'm walking

My open heart kept knocking

I think its getting to me and

I'm falling in love without intimacy

I've been running away from the shit that I need

I guess everything builds until you don't feel a thing

It is what it is but it's not what it seems

To many drugs will make you fean

I lost a lot trying to get in between

And they say that they love you but not what it means

That's a machine mechanical heart puffing on steam

Closing my heart and I'm eating the key

Cuz hurting myself was not helping me

I just need ah break

Cuz all of my friends turned out to be snakes

And all of my evil is one in the same

They say aim for my heart and not for the brain

Shoot for the stars I wished for this pain

This knifes in my skin till the monster is slain

If I kill the beast will I still feel the same?

Is this a dream is everything inside my head?

Is this a dream am I alive or am I dead?

Murder myself in the mirror back words sipping syrup

This redrum makes me tear up

These blood eyes never clear up

What is the point of my life?

Where do we go when we die?

These are the questions that keep me alive

Suicide suicide

Late night on a vibe

Death note I'm prescribed

I told you my feeling of sorrow

I live in a shadow that you couldn't follow

Take what you want till I'm hollowed

Everything given and nothing is borrowed

Down bad on this relapse fallen so many times

That I cant even feel my knee caps then we snap

Is this a dream is everything inside my head?

Is this a dream am I alive or am I dead?