big mistake Lyrics

Woke up in the morning

Tryna keep my vision straight

Thinking last night was fun, but this isn't great

I'm living fate when I'm staring in the bowl and it's full of everything I ate last night

On my dinner plate

I feel another round coming

The decision's made

Sniffing and spitting and getting sweaty on my liquor face

Take a look around

Spinning like a figure eight

Shit, I just got another whiff

Here I go again

Time to get the rest out, but I'm stressed out

Fuck, how am I gonna get home?

What's the best route?

I rode over on my bike last night

And the hangover headache's gonna fight that light outside

So I get up off of the floor

Start riding

Throat's sore

Stop at the grocery store

Think I'll get a water and a burrito

Take two bites

Realize I can't even eat, no

The next leg of the journey my stomach was churning and I was still so goddamn thirsty

I couldn't drink the water, cause it's hard to swallow it

Inside all I feel is a hollow pit

And all of this isn't worth shit

I'm the worst fit

No good at keeping it under the surface

I'm about to blow chunks in the bike lane

Luckily there's nothing left

Still tryna fight pain

Please God, give me a break

Yeah I had my fun, but it was all just a big mistake

All I wanna do is lay face down with a pillow on my head

Do my best to escape sounds

Wait, how did I make it on the pavement?

Ate shit

Bike down

Hope I didn't break it

Finally get home and I open up the deadbolt

Peace is rejecting me

Hopefully my bed won't

I really wish that I never did it

But what's done is done

And I have to live with it

The memory's ingrained in my brain

So vivid

But what's the point of life if you never even live it?

You gotta learn from mistakes you make

Don't take them for granted, they make you great

And the place that you land is the safest place

Cause you're never gonna do it again the same way

Slide a Tylenol down that throat

Allow last night's memory to be a ghost

It'll haunt you, yes

But now you know that your limit is the minute that your vision starts to go

In a state of mind in between space and time

I can't tell if I'm great or fine

But I'd rather be here than after 12 beers

Where my fears come near and I make them mine

Going through the motions and I'm hoping that they open up the notion

That I'm living life floating in an ocean of potions

And I'm soaked in regrets

Holding on to my lessons and ascending from the depths

What's left?

Nothing but a next step

And I'm heading in the right direction, so I guess that I can try to move forward

Write up a new order

And have a different answer when they're asking, "are you cornered?"

Now I see no reason to believe that inebriation is what I need to succeed

It's no help when you're sitting on your knees

And your head's in between your legs and you're struggling to breathe

Even though it seems like the best way to get into the scene

It'll only drown all of your dreams

Never turn to drinking to feel worthy

You'll only feel dirty

Begging for mercy

I really wish that I never did it

But what's done is done

And I have to live with it

The memory's ingrained in my brain

So vivid

But what's the point of life if you never even live it?

You gotta learn from mistakes you make

Don't take them for granted, they make you great

And the place that you land is the safest place

Cause you're never gonna do it again the same way