INVISIBLE TOXIN Lyrics

See depression is more than suicide notes

More than empty pill bottles or cuts on wrists

Depression is finding more ways to mask your pain

Than you find yourself healing from it

Depression wears many faces

Because depression is continuous phases of fake smiles

And hearing a million and one I haven't seen you in a whiles

Because depression is canceling plans

Depression is that friend that gets in the way of you and your other friends

Depression is realizing that your smoking and drinking sessions are becoming excessive

But you do nothing about it because you know no other method

Depression is knowing that we come from a place where

We can't shed no tears

People make it clear that we got to hold onto untold stories

Because we don't talk about feelings here

We come from a place where self harming is considered white people shit

So we keep it pushing and walk around like PTSD don't exist

Then we leave scars on the people that had nothing to do with it

Depression is the fact that I can't tell you how many times

I googled different ways to die

And had the only result I find be suicide hotlines

Frustrated

Thinking guess I got to handle this shit myself

Looking at the prescription pill bottles on my shelf

Depression is that thing making sure that my happiness is never lasting

Depression is viewed as attention seeking

Up until the moment that you prove to people that shit could get tragic

Now those same people are regretting the multiple opportunities they had to check in

And knowing that they didn't take advantage

But see nobody thinking that when they leave you alone

With the thoughts that got you held captive

And they asking

How many times have you shown that you haven't been yourself

And that you're needing help and no one noticed

How many times have the people closest to you

Made you regret being open

How many times have you been a support system

That holds everyone else together while you're broken

Remember that time when you said you were fine

And they knew you were lying

But they did nothing about it

Remember when you almost opened up again

But you remembered the pain of either being left or judged

And you decided that you could do without it

See that's why you got that fear of abandonment

While feeling like self isolation is the only option

As you watch yourself die slow from this Invisible Toxin