PARENTS HAVE FEARS Lyrics

KS

Yo

I'm sorry for the times I didn't listen

I'm sorry for the times you came back to the crib it was a mess and you asked who did it

Everyone said it wasn't me

Then we'll tidy

Cos you said you wouldn't cook if that house isn't clean

I'm sorry I didn't come to you with my depression in my teens

But I felt you didn't have the answer for me

Same way Shaq's talking to Dean

But differently

I put my pain on a beat

It started off as therapy

You met my wants and my needs

But missed your wants and your needs

It made you incomplete to a degree

You're chasing your dreams now and I'm happy to see

I pray that God guides you with your home nursery

Put your all in it mum

It ain't gonna easy but it's gonna be worth it mum

Know the God you're serving mum

Discovering your purpose mum

A loving and nurturing mum

Proud of the woman you're about to become

Never had a perfect childhood cos who does

But I know most parents had to grow up way too fast

They haven't dealt with their past

And the saddest thing is sometimes they take it out on us

There's a thin line between discipline and love

I wonder why my dad ain't married you

And I know deep down you wanna get married too

As a result I haven't had a blue print of what marriage is so I had to change my point of view

Before I got too comfortable

Bare questions that won't get answered

And I got bare questions I got for my father

I don't know where to get started

But I just want you to stop drinking before you end up in a casket

I wonder what you're running from

You taught me morals and right and wrong

Taught me to stand my ground, fight and be strong

I hate it when you're wrong and strong

I hate you don't apologise and we

just move on

I hate that we don't have a bond

Cos it's like you're there but you're not

Feeling my tears drop

As I record this song

Honouring your parents is a commandment of God

But it's hard to honour when you feel your ground isn't common

I feel selfish for asking for more when all you've given me

A place to live and meals to eat

It's crazy you still have time for Amari

Your first grand child and extra heart beat

I think I want you to say you're proud of me

And show me you're human most importantly

Cos 25 years I haven't seen a tear leave

And Shaq's counting 27

Same thing that probably led to his suppression

And depression

Am I less of a man cos I cry more

Is it mad that the same people I live for I'll die for

I think I speak for all of us, to say that if you gave us a push it would make us strive more

And try more

A few things I'm taking off my chest

Regardless I'm grateful cos some of my brothers are fatherless

Searching for their father's love like a quest

Hoping that their mask can hide away their neglect

It's ments

When I'm surrounded by these bottles it's a test

But from today on I'm no longer touching a bottle again

Regardless of the occasion

It's my 25th it's a celebration

Shouldn't feel like it's raining

I've watched you for years and it's paining

People have watched you for years without saying a thing

Probably thinking that's just David

Tell me you love me so I can have that moment and save it

Have it in my heart and place it

Cos when you don't tell your sons you love them it's dangerous

Tell me you love me so i can have that moment and save it

Have it in my heart and place it

Cos when you don't tell your sons you love them it's dangerous

It's dangerous

KS