2020s so far. (two years in) Lyrics

It's been two whole years since my mental breakdown

Early 2020, before the global shutdown

Had a broken laptop and a stolen wallet

Lost all of my software, had to reinstall it

Left a cheating partner who would constantly question

The legitimacy of my deep depression

The news would only cover petty jabs from our "leader"

And some virus in China endorsed by the grim reaper

We were told it was a hoax and it wouldn't affect us

Another lie told, we'd learn in the next months

Lost my high-paying job and my social life

And people started dying on the left and the right

It should have brought us together but it was politicized

A stupid little mask and you've got science denied

And as we all sat at home freshly unemployed

Our screens showed us the public execution of George Floyd

After Breonna and Philando and Alton and Eric Garner

People saw a cop and would feel safer wearing armor

The world took to the streets to protest the police

I found myself in D.C. and while it was mostly peace

Some riots broke out and it scared the suburbians

Neo-nazis took advantage recruiting white trash guardians

My family members rolled their eyes if I would even mention it

Denial from the privileged went ahead and strengthened it

Soon the election wrapped up and that seemed like the end of it

Took all but six days before the next year went to shit

An angry mob of losers tried to hang VP Mike Pence

They broke into the White House and they almost found success

And as I watched people I thought I knew jump to their defense

I started getting real depressed and started drinking in excess

Had a new partner now, thought we were perfect lovers

In hindsight we were just enabling each other

We were blackout driving on a Saturday night

When in the rearview mirror we saw police lights

The cops arrested her but left me on the street

I had to walk home on the highway, then a car struck me

They rushed me to the hospital to handle my brain bleeds

And thanks to the pandemic no one could visit me

I awoke four days later and had lost my memory

Four days of my life gone and I was still feeling foggy

Soon I hobbled out the hospital dragging my broken leg

Physical and cognitive therapy on the reg

And as I learned to live with my altered brain chemistry

Some things that I had had before now were only history

Libido, motivation, speaking without stuttering

Enjoyment of the simplest things falling apart and crumbling

The rest of 2021 was mostly spent recovering

A lot of time alone doing some self-discovering

Now here we are, only two years into the decade

Already every aspect of my life has come to change

If you told me this in 2019 I'd call you deranged

This entire couple years have felt like they were staged

But it's real, it all happened

We're still here, wings still flapping

I'm still alive so I'll keep doing what I do

I survived, and so will you