why do i exist Lyrics

Why do i exist

Just want my soul to disappear in The mist

Every little thing gets me pissed

Is it me or is it you

I love you but i know im not the Only person

Not the only person, Not the only Person

Every time i fuck up i feel like a Burden

You say you don't do shit but thats What shows above the surface

What about below it

What about below it

What if there's a bunch of shit you Do without me noticing

What if im not the only person You are focusing on

Man this shit is crazy

How can you love someone when You repeatedly eye down on other Dudes

Its so fucking awkward

Pay attention to your lover instead Of making him feel so bothered

Today can be the last day i breathe

Its too late for me im going Underneath

Will people even miss me

Or will they just mourn move on And forget about all the shit i did

Damn maybe i need help

Maybe its too late for people to Save me well

Its destined to happen

No one can fix me and im not even Capping

What the fuck do i have to do to Not feel insecure

Telling me to not worry about About anything when there is a lot Of shit to worry about

Without a doubt

Do i even make you feel aroused Anymore

I give you my everything do you Want more

Yeah but not from me

You probably think im blind but i Can see

Whats all done in the dark will Shine and fall on me

Give me reassurance instead of Beating me down mentally

Momma im sorry im a Disappointment

Don't even know if school is for Me but imma keep it going

This music is the main thing Please trust the process

Its a work in progress

My life is falling but imma keep on Balling

Can't wait till i get stacks and give Them to my family and see their Eyes bawling

Seems so far fetched but im not Even stalling

Derealization gets me frustrated

Sometimes i don't even know who I am and i get faded

I get faded

Yeah i get faded

No one cares about my mental Health

How the fuck am i supposed to be Happy when i hate myself

Yeah i fucking despise myself

I hate the way i think it just ruins My health

I've been a depressed young boy Since i was twelve

Shit ever since my dad left this Earth i've been feeling empty

Sometimes i think about going up There with him that shit is so Tempting but

I gotta persevere and stay here for My siblings and all my peers

Live your dreams with confidence And not fear