The Depictions of a Bad Man Lyrics

Can't look at my face, feel way too ashamed All the mistakes, put them out on display

The depictions of a bad man, bad man The depictions of a bad man, bad man

How do I take it back? I can't feel so trapped Can I get away? Tell me, will the pain last

The depictions of a bad man, bad man The depictions of a bad man, bad man

My regrets are like scars that I've been keeping inside

Just like a mark on my body, I only see with my mind

Give me nightmares when I sleep, keeps me awake through the night

They tell a story when you look at all of them in the light

Then you can see every deep issue that I try to hide

The parts I don't wanna show, in fear I'll be criticized

But that's changed, cause now I wanna show em all in the lines

Cause I'm done hating who I am, so let us open up fine

If you see all my arms, you'll see the things that I said

Everyone I said I hated, and I wish that were dead

And they were people I loved, but that just ain't matter then

My mind had told me to say it, so it came out of my lips

And I can't take it all back, and I can't put it back in

And so I live with it, and watch as my relationships bend

And I will always remember them, through marks on my skin

But for now, we'll cover them so I can smile again

Can't look at my face, feel way too ashamed

All the mistakes, put them out on display

The depictions of a bad man, bad man

The depictions of a bad man, bad man

How do I take it back, I can't feel so trapped

Can I get away, tell me will the pain last

The depictions of a bad man, bad man

The depictions of a bad man, bad man

My regrets are like scars, that cover up my whole body

There's not a place that I can see, nowhere that I can look on me

That doesn't remind me of everything that I have been harboring

I got these ones on my chest, that carries trauma like armies

It's got the hearts that I've broken, it's perfect where it's been placed

And all the lies that I've told them, and all of me that's been faked

And I don't wanna hold it, but I can't get it away

It's buried right in my body, it's buried deep in my brain

And it's got all that I wanted, that I would never protect

Felt so owed from life, that I thought I could live in neglect

And if you wanted more from me, then that's your problem

Instead, I should've cherished what I had, before I let it all slip

And got the time that I wasted, living my life so depressed

And leaving my motivations behind, to live in my mess

Fall in love with my agony, cuddle up with my stress

Instead of finding happiness, I chose to live in regret

Can't look at my face, feel way too ashamed

All the mistakes, put them out on display

The depictions of a bad man, bad man

The depictions of a bad man, bad man

How do I take it back? I can't

Feel so trapped, can I get away? Tell me, will the pain last

The depictions of a bad man, bad man

The depictions of a bad man, bad man

And these ones on my stomach, and these ones on my back

They hurt me the most, and keep the worst of the bad

Cause they're regrets, from the only one who treated me best

Until they didn't, because of how I traveled a path

Of unfaithfulness, caused by unhealthy addiction

That I never understood, till it was too late to fix it

And I don't have a person to blame but myself

And only have a mirror to see the one who caused me hell

And I just wanna break down every time that I think about it

Took the things inside my life I loved the most and walked around em

Made the person who had loved me wanna hurt me

I'm astounded, how can I keep reaching new lows

Like I'm digging through the ground with every tool I got

Like God, why did you make me so appalling

Put this brain inside my head like I'm supposed to ever love it

Tell me what is wrong with me and why I always feel like falling

And why can't I find any way else to be but awful