used to be pretty Lyrics

I start to cry 

In the dressing room light

What I thought was my size 

Won't make it past my thighs

And it hurts

Seeing myself at my worst

I turn to the side 

Taking pictures so my 

Hips don't look quite as wide

Yeah, I'm real good at hiding

My flaws

And tryin to be something I'm not 

Oh I try being kind but can't help

Hating this version of myself

I wish I was pretty

Like I used to be 

At 23, when I'd look in the mirror

And wish I was 19

I've hated my body

Since the beginning

I'm starting to wonder if I'll always look at myself and just think

I used to be pretty

Sad and naive

A size 3, wouldn't eat,

I survived on the lies 

Fed to me thru a screen

I was numb

Every compliment hit like a drug

I compare myself to who I was

Will I ever be good enough 

I wish I was pretty

Like I used to be 

Back at 19, when I'd look in the mirror and wish I was 16

I've hated my body

As long as I've breathed

I'm starting to wonder if I'll always look at myself and just think

I used to be pretty

Mean to myself

Putting my mind thru hell

Locked away in a cell

Trying to fit in a box made

For somebody else

Sacrificing my health

I was crying for help

I wish I was pretty

& took up less space

I'm not as small as I used to be

I hope one day I'll know that's ok