Lessons Learned Lyrics

I'm just gonna write the first thing that comes to my head

I don't even have the energy to sleep in my bed

Different rhyme schemes

Different crime scenes

Different dark themes

Different bright screens but the same dreams

And why not

Why not do the same things

Wear the same rings

See the flowers, how they blooming in the same springs

I just wanna be like them

Be the right men

Nothing seems to be seen as exciting

As before, this is a letter to me that I've been trying to ignore

Am I good? Sure

I just want more of the same drugs, trynna get the same taste, what is that for

It's like I've been walking through the same door

But fuck these feelings

They just go right through the ceiling

And once you're trynna reach them they come back and cause the bleeding

That you're trynna stop

And if the ball is bringing problems I'm the shortstop

God I think I'm getting normal then is nothing

Your love was good before, what a great thing

You become the problem that's not a "you" thing

I prefer the classics, don't give me new things

I was locked up on a cell and then I found wings

Then I flew away

So I put my biggest project out that's why I'm here today

Don't you hear all the good things that I have heard you say

It's like you know you wanna leave but you still wanna stay

Give me the reason, give me real truth

Oh my God I'm getting tired of this dumb youth

They take the sinning as living, you see them thinking they winning but they be digging the feeling of feeling empty

Even when you think I'm done I still got plenty

Of things to be

Not you and me

I was bad before that doesn't mean that I still need to be

I'm feeling good now and I'm way better than I used to be

Oh, oh

Oh, oh

Wait for you

Wait

(And I'm way better than I used to be)

Okay so let me say my prayers

Let me kill the player in me

Let me die, let me fly over lies in me

With the wind in my skin, find the free in me

In the spring with the ring that you gave to me

It's passed to somebody else

I made the decision when you found somebody else

And now I got somebody else

That's making me remember that I'm not just somebody else

But what if it's a dream again

What if I'm just thinking about the things I used to be again

What if she's just acting like she's just another me again

Another me again

No service

Lost connection with my feelings now I'm nervous

Finding purpose in the surface

I love the things that give me things to write about

You heard I said don't make me say it again

Repeating myself with the same demons again

And killing myself with the same weapons again

With the same weapons again, oh

Touching the window trynna find an exit

Sometimes I feel like I'm just desperate

Staring at myself and it's a secret

Staring at myself and it's a secret

You weren't close to my heart, you were inside of it

You cut your way out and you got outside of it

You went from calling me every morning

To leave me with no warning

Fuck every story that I never got to speak about

Screw all the reactions that I know I used to freak about

Moonwalking through the shit I used to trip about

And talking 'bout the things I used to shut about

Working everyday, I never burn out

Never feeling like I'm getting stressed out

Ethic that I got when it was cold out

No doubt that I'll ever be the same, putting my thoughts out

Pieces of me, exposed

Pieces of me, disposed

Friends are getting too close

Who knows

Where this is gonna end when this thing blows out

Debating whether I do this or not

Deciding whether I'm gonna leave or not

Can't hold a grudge against myself I gotta choose if I'm gonna lose or not

The same one I ever wanted is the same that I'ma get

Cuz I'm reaching the requirements I know I never met

I'm learning how to use the words I understand I never said

Cuz the same way I'ma I love is the same way I'll forget

These friends are like my shadows

I don't have them when it's dark

You see them with the light but when that's gone they lose the spark

I only have them in my photos cuz they stay deep in my heart

You gained a spot in me that was forever from the start

Fuck the past, I'm just trynna live the present

Living every moment, I'm not wasting any second

I know there is a lot of things that I forgot to mention

But I hope you get the point that means that I have learned a lesson