Wonder Lyrics

I think it's time to step aside and let it go

My feelings got to a point where they are too cold to show

I think it's pride that's telling me I should man up and leave

But I can not put all those tricks back on my sleeve no more

Is this really me

Or am I faking everything

Just for the sake of putting one girl over anything

I just don't wish for you to hate me over anything

I'm writing songs but all these songs don't change a single thing

And now it's me myself and I the only ones to hate

I see you walking with that dress and I can't tolerate

The thoughts of me and you going to prom but as a date

Getting a call from mom dad asking why am I out so late

I'm bleeding my feelings in this beat tell me do you like the sound

A lake of tears I see myself I wanna jump and drown

You know I see you every time I go down to your town

I don't want to but that just happens when I drive around

I wonder if this is me

I wonder if you miss me

I wonder who you call everytime that you wanna diss me

I wonder who you love with the same passion you loved disney

I wonder would you take the chances even if they're risky

I wonder who am I after what I did to you

I wonder who am I after what that did to me

I wonder how the things are going with me and you

I wonder if you thought a single time if it was meant be

I don't want the answers but tell me why you ain't the same

You took a path that wasn't good but who am I to blame

You were a candle I was the one who lit up the flame

You started shining bright right when I started becoming rain

My heart is beating fast

These feelings never last

This pain is worst than all the traumas I had in the past

While you're having a blast

I pour henny on a glass

Im laying in my backyard im putting tears down in my grass

I keep looking for these questions that hide deep inside my mind

Im finding parts of me that I thought I'd never find

Then I get back on my knees praying to God for just for a sign

I say I'll let you go then I pretend like everything is fine

I keep lying im trying to let it out

I'm seeing how my life is passing and I'm missing out

And now my mic is something I could never live without

Reciting bout our stories but i don't like saying my thoughts out loud

I'm fighting demons and I think I'm loosing

Locked in my room producing

You hear these melodies but never think for once I'm using

The pain I got from March 16th but now it's when bruising

But now it's getting worst I'm looking at the path you're choosing

I write so much to let it out God I wish I could cry

Why do I keep hurting myself just so I see you try

They say time is gonna heal it but time is passing by

I deserve this this is my tooth for tooth this is my eye for eye

This isn't gonna end well

I hope this message blends well

They always ask for where I am but never how is Denzel

Surrounded by these drugs God I think I'm going mental

Give me your heart again I promise that I'll be gentle

Shooting all the veins in my heart and going on killing spree

I find blood around my body I shoot again maybe two times or three

I want you dead is what I hear from the deepest of me

I'll stay alive I won't let a single feeling get to me

But fuck this shit I'll get over it

I know I will

I said I'm done but I'm thinking about you still

It's like my legs don't hurt it's like the second time I climb the hill

I'm trynna find the biggest thoughts so my mind gets fulfilled