Still Sober Lyrics

There's only one reason I'm still here

That reason is God

I can't believe I'm still sober

Was praying this life would be over

And when I couldn't get any lower

That night you showed up and drew closer

I tried to take my life in 2015

I couldn't take life barely existing

Hoping this bottle would make things more interesting

But is wrestling with a demon the best thing

And tell me who do I call when no one will answer

At the club I need help so I got my hands up

You can take it all away hold my life for ransom

I don't even really want it till they hold me back from it

I'm trying to drink away the person I'm not supposed to be

You can see the good inside but never get too close to me

Whenever I hold a drink this close can God get a hold of me

Slow to believe I pick up the pistol load it and see and

I can't believe I'm still sober

Was praying this life would be over

And when I couldn't get any lower

That night you showed up and drew closer

And Andrew's closer took no time to be subdued

Starving couldn't help it I still chose the bottle over food

To loneliness I'm glued you know me it's the way that I've been viewed

You don't know why I choose to keep feeding this demon I elude

I don't wanna be this way I keep wasting every breath

God knew I'd only be saved if I'm an inch away from death

I've got nothing left every tear is wept haven't slept

Need a bottle just to knock me down and find some kind of depth

And He sent the perfect woman that would lead me back to Him

I know that His grace wouldn't see me to a tragic end

I used to pretend now I can't do anything but follow

Saved me from the bottle filled me up with love when I was hollow

I can't believe I'm still sober

Was praying this life would be over

And when I couldn't get any lower

That night you showed up and drew closer

I can't believe I'm still sober

Without You my life would be over