Jaded Lyrics

Tell me what ya know about barely surviving week to week

Manifesting a dream that I feel I can never achieve

I need to reach an agreement

The mountain of fecies I've climbed over will leave you

Weak at the knees but I've grown so much from it that

I'm able to stand on what woulda cut my agchilles heel

From missing re payments to eat a feed I have to keep telling

Me to believe that everything works out and I'm speakin to god

But it seems like it's all on me

Im not sure why I'm put me on this path I'm calling

Asking if there's something bigger for me out here

I'm not just another quitter that's about to fuckin give up

But after some years in hardship and loaning money quicker

Than im able to recover interust

Im back into a cycle it's drowning me as i continue sinking

Further under river

And when receiving a blessing I embrace it but soon

Enough I be stressing

I go back to square one checking the grocerys total

For the bare essentials enough that I can push through

But it's testing my patiants when I been living in a less

Than standard imagine cookin a meal but the powers

Trippin in this old ass setting

Just when I get back ontop of my game im drawn

A reverse so you uno

I spiral back down to the abyss and history repeats on loop

So who knows how this scrunched up life a mine unfolds

But nevertheless I never lose hope

And even though I'm in a financial straight jacket

Only surviving for over due notices

And making ends meet should I drop out and run

Back to safety I choose no

Over time I'v found my place in feeling jaded but I

Think time I find a new home

It's me verses gravity

Success seems like a fantasy

Im jaded jaded jaded Never found

Myself able to change it change it change it

Uncomfortable and I can't take it take it take it

You learn to get by with the basics basics basics

I know if I died tomorrow the lady speaks on how

I'm chasing dreams

But he had this constant gaping leap of hurdles

Life didnt make it easy he could of gone back to his family

But wasn't prepared to throw it all away and leave

Behind what he'd been working on for days n weeks

Months n years placing seeds

Setting himself up for the future which he grinded

Out through the thick awaiting his reward

Study hard for a degree but to a degree it's bin equating

To be the very thing that's keeping me stagnant

I still ink away the shit's contagious

Iv bottled up enough soda state im in im ready

To get abit abrasive

Just a bit longer in the red things will get better

If only my vault was some like my unreleased

I'd be able to kick the debt burn it away like a cigarette

I got a shit tonne of interest in making that happen

I'm looking at my next source of income gettin anxious

Over what bills be next while tangled in a web of arrears

I'm too stressed to live cuz I live in stress

Although I prolly got no right to complain cuz I got

Some food and my rent is paid

But im hours away from any family I walk this shit myself

My leg it aches I'm not in a good enough place to do

Better I gotta make the most out of every day

And even when jaded I have to power on

And look towards center stage

Imagine being a rapper and ya parents loan ya money

Cuz you havn't earned a fucking cent to pay

For anything I get embarrassed cuz I fall behind and can't recoup the debt I made

It's me verses gravity

Success seems like a fantasy

Im jaded jaded jaded Never found

Myself able to change it change it change it

Uncomfortable and I can't take it take it take it

You learn to get by with the basics basics basics