at the point of no return. Lyrics

When darkness starts to give way to a sunrise and I'm wide awake

I try make some sense of the feeling, peeling desire away

I'm tired of days

With too little sunshine

And too much shade, I may

Aspire for a messiah

Higher up on the hill, I lay

Border on the edge of artist and jester

Still carrying

Carnage, careful, I'm burying

Stars I shot, just a scary glimpse

With a fit that is all white, but Aria's not Aryan

All these thoughts I'm airing out

Can't catch my breath

I'm staring out the window of this half way house

I'm half way down

My downward spiral

Like my idols

This path may excite all of my rivals

Till they're victims of my visions

That I stifled with these rhythms

Cycles of my sick condition

Recycles this shit depression

I'm psycho, no second guessing

With this slight discretion

I've invested years and months to dream this up

With a new bright expression

This scene is fucked

This mic is strengthened by inflections

Kept in the confines of my mind

I can't find a semblance

Of a sense of any meaning

Skeptical, but since I'm leaning

Towards hope, I've been misreading

Horoscopes I've been receiving

Just to cope and keep on dreaming

Too deep, I'm sick of being

Horrid, fuck a moral code

And any of my inner feelings

I've considered leaving

Just to ghost you

Seeming bored

Still sick, revealing stored up bitterness and lack of healing

Any willing participant will dismiss this veiling

That I'm hailing as expired

Sing me to sleep like a canary

I'm far from tired

I build and I climb

Up these hills at night

Try to touch the sky

But I fall back and I decline

I built me a shrine

Of daydreams and some lies

That may seem out of reach

But it's the way that I get by

I build and I climb

Up these hills at night

Try to touch the sky

But I fall back and I decline

I built me a shrine

Of daydreams and some lies

That may seem out of reach

But it's the way that I get by

Shallow, despite what you plea

That's just life at its steepest

Air my lungs out at the thought

Of who you'd rather go sleep with

This heart of glass you kept captive

Shattered this Pisces to pieces

Gather my thoughts like I'm sweeping shards off the facts

Ive been keepin' my eyes

Set on direction

Though my perception is weakened

All that's set and what's finished

Left me these remnants of secrets

Ruminate on what grief even gets me

Tweaking, I eat less

So I just feed off delusion

Until my face becomes beet red

Bite the bullet

Beauty's illusion mimics figments of wishful times

My heart and mind stay misaligned

But these divine, conflicted times

Restrict my eyes from distant lies

That been described as hives

Inflict my pride with strides

I can't deny this vigorous regimen

Lead me to vent and binge

On potent pills from the medicine cabinet

Ever since, it's been habit to have a pinch

I've been itching

Risks existing, rather hinge

My jaws on these tablets

Till Withdrawals

Off the wall, I'm bat shit

Find resolve in a casket

I'm a monster

I'm a freak

I'm unwanted

Watch me bleed all of these dreams

Till I conjure enough courage to feel redeemed

And all these stains may close in on my face

When she told me all the ways I coped won't ever kill the pain

In the end, I'll feel the same and forced to stay

And forced to blame myself for all this shame remains

It feels like tryna dry my eyes out in the pouring rain

This fucking story frame is void of range

And I don't think there's much of anything else more to say

This fucking story frame is void of range

And I don't think there's much of anything else more to say

This fucking story frame is void of range

And I don't think there's much of anything else more to say

I build and I climb

Up these hills at night

Try to touch the sky

But I fall back and I decline

I built me a shrine

Of daydreams and some lies

That may seem out of reach

But it's the way that I get by

I build and I climb

Up these hills at night

Try to touch the sky

But I fall back and I decline

I built me a shrine

Of daydreams and some lies

That may seem out of reach

But it's the way that I get by