Bruised Skin Lyrics

Returned to a point in my mind I thought I had long moved past

Wrote all my abuse songs and thought that I was getting better

But progress isn't as easy as just letting out

The darkness comes in waves and suddenly the bottom falls out

Failure

addict [self medicate]

Selfish

Pounding footsteps only I hear

Panic

Cower [there's nothing there]

Ears Ring

Too old to be doing this

Body cant comprehend safety never thought that it would last

A yearning to be punished for each percieved wrongful act

Constantly angry at myself for things that I can't help

I deserve worse I deserve hurt I want to go to hell

Bruised skin used to feel like an outfit

a pain threshold that I held in my heart

I never thought that it wasn't normal

I always thought that it made me tough

Just the way that it is when we were all kids

never looking outside your life is what it is

Then you grow up and the wounds all really start to heal

Then you realize how naked you feel without them there

Fuck, I'm aching

Again, Just hit me

Again, I need it

Again

Crave the relief

I need the escape

just look what you did to me

Dont you dare forget it

I wont be there to see your last breath

Last time we talked it was over

Why can't I reach a conclusion

Now that I've put some fucking years behind it

Why can't I just live my life

It's been so many years past but

I'm still bombarded by fear and thoughts of

The ones left behind

I cant sit still

Fuck

Did I

Fuck it

No use in dwelling anymore