hard feelings Lyrics

Don't think just cause I was a child I didn't see the disconnection

When it came to my older female cousins

They were so selective

I was just a immature kid who all of them rejected

Instead of giving corrections they just made me to a peasant

Females always triumph over males when showed affection

But now that I've matured

They want to show the love that isn't

No disrespect to them it's just that now they feel my presence

All the kindness I was missing

It's too late to try to fix it

I'm not a full blown Christian

I have an evil side

Sometimes I'm convicted to be a feeble guy

But those are comments to me from people who don't try

I give life all my attention cause one day I will die

I will not live with regrets that would kill my pride

I done lost too many people who I loved too much so I have to try

I'll leave all my hard feelings in the past

There's no hard feelings anymore

I know a hundred people who didn't close the door in my face

Left me lying on the shore with no nutrients

Heat cased on the floor

Full of hate

That's no more

Matter fact

There's no scars on my back from the ones who attacked me

That's exactly why I've stayed to myself for a long time

There were only a few who had bothered to even hit my line

So don't cross the line if you wasn't there during hard times when I wasn't fine

When I felt as if I didn't have a clue of mine

I'm giving no fucks to the ones who left me in a ruck

Feeling stuck enclosed in a filthy truck in a Dixie cup filled with many slugs rotting out with plenty bugs in my guts

At least that's what it felt like cause you showed no love

Now I'm addicted to the pain like I'm into drugs

Fill the henne up with Valium until I have withdrawals just to overdose with no helping call

I've evolved into a independent person who can make their own purchase that's for certain

I'm still learning while I'm working so do not disturb me

I keep a low profile while I'm searching for my merchant like a serpent

I'm been lurking

Imma just close the curtains

Shhh

The feelings mutual cause you're my burden