Not All As It Seems Lyrics

You and I made it through the end and it just seems (uh hu)

But honestly what does that mean did we really seal the seam (no)

I know none of you ever heard this all full and in whole (its true)

I writing this from a place of which was never told (not once)

Stole it all we been through too much of abandonment

Forced out of our home only to find out what that truly is

I know I said that I was fine, I lied

I know my words cut you deep but I never meant a word

It's all just nothing more then extra shit I wish you never heard

I tried to find my peace got high to feel relief

A scarred up soul bled drowning in all my unbelief (in my unbelief)

Paranoid anxious high as hell head full of stress

And I love you even though sometimes I forget to text

And I'd give you everything even if I have nothing left (haha)

And even at your worse for us you always tried your best (you did)

And all the shit that we went through I just won't forget (won't forget)

You always kept your love you always kept me in check (haha)

On the outside it's never as it seems

It always hurts to know the truth

On the outside it's never as it seems

It always hurts

Always hurts yeah

I know and can't and won't believe it

Nightmares into the real shit

It's hard to believe but it's not all as it seem

I know I can't and won't believe it

Life changing with the season

It's hard to believe but it's not all as it seems

Haha ok

It's all started with nothin more then a text that's comin'

Read in disbelief shattered apart the entire comin' (it did)

I know it's crazy, but I wasn't even there for nothin' (uh-uh)

Lost my way no pain cloudy mind to fill all my numbing

In order to be fine that what's was needed for loving

Was puffing (so I could feel nothing)

Came home to a reality I made up in my mind

Masked the truth so lost no where to I could find

It seems that I lost it all which tore my soul

Not only mind but my moms whose love kept my control (she did)

It hurts to know when thought someone love you deep, but then walks out of your life

There's no control to be chained just self thought to be applied

So I started rapping to get the thoughts off my mind

Started watching my favourite rappers interviews

Got lost in a reality that I wish could be truth

I would do anything for all to come true in my dreams

Just like my mom sacrificed her needs, by any means

Started spending hours with my love

Spending more time with her then anybody else (not tough)

Out late movies nothing came more close to her then enough

Told her everything poured it out all on the front

Even at my worst you stuck it out till I adjust

Bathroom smoking wakin' up with my body aching and longing for something

Broken family no dad in the picture

Saw it effected my sister

It got be stressing about my mother but I know that God got her

On the outside it's never as it seems

It always hurts to know the truth

On the outside it's never as it seems

It always hurts

Always hurts yeah

I know and can't and won't believe it

Nightmares into the real shit

It's hard to believe but it's not all as it seem

I know I can't and won't believe it

Life changing with the season

It's hard to believe but it's not all as it seems

(It's not all as it seems)