NEVER Lyrics

I never meant to hurt you know

I never meant to be this way

See I'm a product of my environment statistically born to fail

I feel my time is near but still got so much more to tell

I know I ain't the only one but yet I'm still alone

I need a change of scenery but yet I'm still at home

Drowning in my own sorrows still stuck in the past

Feeling happy for a minute but still nothing will last

Sticking needles I'm my arm so I can numb the pain

So ashamed of the person I've become today

I feel the noose around my neck just getting tighter with time

I need some help I beg the lord to get me right in my mind

Don't wanna quit but I don't see no other option for me

I hope you find me first cause I don't want my momma to see

Her baby boy has given up cause he fell victim to drugs

Even though you were there for me with unconditional love

I'm so cold hearted don't even have no love for myself

So tell me how someone like me can ever love somebody else

I never meant to hurt you now

I never meant to take your heart and tear you down

I never meant to be this way

I never meant to tell you its gone be ok

I never meant to tell you that lie

I never meant for precious time to pass me by

I never meant to hurt the ones I love

Never meant to hurt the ones I love but did it anyway

I feel lost in time trying to get my life back

Is it really worth it though I'm looking at the price tag

Barely can afford to even make it to the next day

Nothing left to lose might as well fuck it let's pray

Lord forgive me for all my sins and all that I've done

I'm catching up to God the devils got me on the run

I put the blame on myself I put it all on me

It wasn't mother or father it wasn't poverty

I put my self in this situation I'm over it

This life is a blessing and there's gotta be more to it

Get myself clean get back on my feet and then grind

No wasting no time let me play back the beat and then rhyme

I got one last chance at redemption and I hope I don't fail

I don't wanna die alone or be broken in jail

I wanna tell my kids I did my best and never surrendered

But when I got I hope that you will always remember, that

I never meant to hurt you now

I never meant to take your heart and tear you down

I never meant to be this way

I never meant to tell you its gone be ok

I never meant to tell you that lie

I never meant for precious time to pass me by

I never meant to hurt the ones I love

Never meant to hurt the ones I love but did it anyway

I never meant to hurt you now

I never meant to curse you down

I never meant to cause you pain

I never meant to cross your name

I never meant to be this way