Statues Lyrics

I was just a kid

Living in a grown up world just tryna live

Figuring it all out whether it's a hit or miss

Knew I was bound to make mistakes but didn't commit

All the down times how could I've anticipate it

My heart and my mind I separated

All the trust I had I lacerated

Guess it was my fault all along they dictated

Too many times I let them play with my heart

They twist it, used it, and tore it apart

Left my broken dreams on this boulevard

When I had enough made me at fault

Where were these so called "friends" I had from the start

One flick of a switch left me in the dark

My final words was their first remark

Led to believe it was the end of my story arc

For the love of God if I had a chance

I'd go back in time to make amends

To my younger self where I was content

Believed everyone I blindly trusted was a friend

I was so young with no common sense

But the action was mine alone in the end

My own happiness I tried to prevent

My own mental was my punishment

But can I become the person who I was once before

Keep sinking deeper in the abyss or become something so much more

I can't keep blaming myself for all the things I can't control

How many more of these scars must I receive until my sins atone

The more I keep blaming myself the deeper I bury my wounds in salt

Which is why I locked my heart deep in a vault covered in concrete walls

Used to think I had it all but even Rome was bound to fall

So I'll put my agony in these songs so you can understand the message cause

For the longest I lived with my regrets

Tried to move on but it's trapped in my head

Can't take it anymore

But I can go on knowing I tried my best

These statues don't move no matter how much I pray (I can't move)

They're staring at me laughing at every single mistake (I can't breathe)

I was just a kid but I'm done being the arbiter (I can't move)

Done being the one to blame (I can't breathe)

Can I still believe in myself

Even when I'm so down

Can I still see the sky

With my head up in the clouds

How can I stay motivated

When my depressive disorder is so profound

How can anyone hear me

When my anxiety won't let me scream for help

Looking back, just a lost soul, with no help or proper guidance

Wish someone would've hugged me but instead just made some terrible decisions

Everyday when I try to be myself, I keep running into these walls of depression

In reality I feel like a fraud when they say they're influenced by my existence

Looked in the mirror the other day

Spoke to the devil as we conversate

No matter how much momma prays

The suicidal thoughts won't go away

All the wrong doings I'm the one to blame

Told me all the bullets taste so great

Said I only get five seconds of fame

The only thing looking back is a reflection of hate

I feel so lifeless flowing down the river

Who can I blame for all my trauma when I'm the one who delivered

Wore all these mask but I'm not getting any better

How am I a role model when I'm painted as a sinner

For the longest I lived with my regrets

Tried to move on but it's trapped in my head

Can't take it anymore

But I can go on knowing I tried my best

These statues don't move no matter how much I pray (I can't move)

They're staring at me laughing at every single mistake (I can't breathe)

I was just a kid but I'm done being the arbiter (I can't move)

Done being the one to blame (I can't breathe)