Anxiety ft. SH3 Lyrics

You wanna feel numb? Cause it feels like you're going insane

You wanna run from, the hurt and pain

I used to find a friend in me

Now all I see is an enemy

That's all I see every time I look straight through the mirrors

I don't see myself staring back all I see is someone I fear

Every time I take a glance and my face be running down with tears

Questioning my work ethics reflecting on whom I've become in these past few years

That's why I keep a pen and a notepad around so I can write these words

Jotting down my emotions and everything to release my hurt

And when I do there's so much behavior in myself I had to unlearn

Battling my inner demons regularly so now I guess it's my turn

Sometimes I wish things would go back to the way they were before

But if I thought like that then everything I've done what would we be fighting for

Break down into tears when I look in the mirror not recognizing myself anymore

I try my best to stay awake but my mind is playing tug of war

My friends tell me all the time to convey everything's that's on my mind

But when I try all I wanna do is go to a corner and try to hide

It's hard enough already when I'm too busy trying to swallow my pride

So I'll just sit in the corner and let the anger slowly kill me inside

You wanna feel numb? Cause it feels like you're going insane

You wanna run from, the hurt and pain

I used to find a friend in me

Now all I see is an enemy

How many lyrics do I have to write to cover the blood on these walls

Cause no matter how many I write the stains wouldn't ever come off

So I sit there in defeat and have the pain in my heart prolong

But that's a pain I don't wanna feel again so I'll put them in this song

Music is all I have when I find difficulty expressing the emotions I convey

No matter how much I speak I feel like an outcast it's obvious we aren't the same

So I just keep it inside and bottle up my emotions and turn all that into hate

But I'm exhausted from letting it drag me down so somebody free me from this cage

No matter how hard I try feels like I'm battling uphill

Because the harder I try it doesn't seem like I'm trying for real

Which then led me down a path towards the alcohol and pills

And placed my mind in a dark room just waiting for me to be killed

Growing up happiness was something that I never had

And whenever I tried to pursue it it felt like I was walking on broken glass

Crying my eyes out until eventually I slipped right through the cracks

And have my momma cry to me panicking that I was slowly becoming my dad

Cause in retrospect I was getting tired of the abuse

That I was giving to myself daily now that's a cold heart truth

I just want to feel alive for once is that even hard to do

Went through hell and back so dear God if you're real, where in the world are you?

You wanna feel numb? Cause it feels like you're going insane

You wanna run from, the hurt and pain

I used to find a friend in me

Now all I see is an enemy