Midnight Thoughts ft. Moøn & REDWLF Lyrics

(I fucking hate myself)

(I am so fucking lonely)

(You don't know what it's like to be worthless when nothing you do matters)

(I feel like that every day of my life)

(Every damn day)

I was eight when I first noticed my depression but couldn't let it show

At sixteen it caused my first panic attack and I just let it grow

Bottled up my feelings knowing one day it would all explode

Told my mama I was sad

Then she took my hand

Looked me in the eyes and said I know

That's when I finally broke

Even when I find the words to say it I still choke so

In that moment of erosion

This is what I wrote

I felt for a bit that I got a lot to hide

My heart keeps getting ripped you can see whats been inside

Might be selfish but don't blame me for my mind

If you have the right to live then you have the right to die

I just don't want to live

Cause the more I try the less I get back

I don't wanna die I just don't want to live

Cause in my twenty years I've never felt a thing

I'm fifteen am I

Losing my mind?

I don't want to die alone

It's sickening that I

Got no tears left to cry

So many friends lost to suicide

So many memories on my phone

Not giving up but I'm so close

Put on a smile but that's just a show

Oh

I got no hope

And I've been so cold

Sick with these flows

And I'm numb to the pain

Could do the drugs but I'd die in that game

Rhymes in my soul I could die any day

The music it helps but I'm feeling the same

It's midnight

I can't think right

There's been too many times

I've been hurting my whole life

(I don't wanna die I just don't want to live)

(Cause the more I try the less I get back)

(I don't wanna die I just don't want to live)

(Cause in my twenty years I've never felt a thing)