Note to Self Lyrics

I don't know what else to do inside of this world

I tried my hardest, poured my heart out, took my time and waited longer

I'm still stuck and confused

I'm not the one to compare, but some things don't seem fair

I do everything that I'm supposed to, but I still remain right here

I'm trying to be a legend, but this game won't let me in

No, I'm trying to be king again

Stuck and fucked, I'm over it

Trying to help my brothers win

Supposed to be the leader and don't feed them

What the fuck is this

Promise I'm trying my hardest

Promise I'm trying my hardest

I don't even wanna win

Wanna keep my promises

But this game is cold

Nobody care about you unless you're in

No, no

And they say to check up, but nobody check up

This ain't what it used to be, more than depression

This ain't sadness, this is madness

This is me going mad and shit

I just get so mad at shit that I know that I can fix

But I won't, won't it, that's so obvious

And honestly, I'm ready to build walls again

But I ain't as strong as him

I promise I'ma be there when I get this shit

I'm trapped but nobody listens, shit, I get it

I'm in shackles, tryint to battle out

I guess I'm in a predicament

Nobody give a fuck, cause I'm just here for entertainment

This shit entertain them

I'm not human, I'm an entertainer

I'm a slave in this shit

They want something from me, they get it

That is it

I sign my life away with every verse that I spit

Every line that I write, I'm giving away my life

Tell me what the fuck to do

Requests make me uncomfortable

Wanna do what I wanna do, not what they want me to

That's the shit I'm forced to do

Of course I'm gonna do it too

I'm force fed, they give me food

They pay my bills, but fuck em dude

But I love em, that's something I say truthfully

Honestly, I wish they accept me for who I wanna be

Not who I put on and act, and act like behind the scenes

I wish they saw behind the scenes

But when I get to the top, nobody is ever stopping me

Promise my mama and God, I'ma go make em believe

If they hating, please wait patiently

I'ma make em see, make em change they face like they applying some Maybelline

That's a crazy thing, a crazy thing to think

It'll happen on my grave

I'm trying to be a legend, and legends shake up landscapes

And these walls closing in, so I have to escape quick

I'm feeling like I'm falling with no ground to hit with

Falling in a void, can't avoid this whole feeling

I'ma feel it till I'm in it, and I'm free again

But who knows if I'll be free again

Pray things change, and I pray I make a way

And if a road don't open up, I pray I learn to pave

Pray I make change, and change the way we view the game

I'll sacrifice my life, but won't sign away my name

Please tell me why I keep these chains

When they keep me stuck inside a cage

Instead of being chained at the hands and feet

This game make me put them around my neck