Siblings Lyrics

Tell me how this shit makes sense I've seen blood switch quicker than a paid ref

I've seen friends switch up for the paycheck

When I got paid less, I seen people's face less

When shit was all good, it was all good

They would watch paint dry if I wanted to

Now to get people together, it's impossible

Ain't it funny how they see you when you down and low

I would've thought since they was down before

and faced obstacles

That they'd understand where I was coming from

I seen snakes in the grass for some months that done passed

If they hiss once don't just stop, you go

We done chased all type of goals, all type of hoes

We would sit and laugh and type all kind of jokes

But when I stop providing, they go up and go

Stop feeding people, watch what that hunger do

I know, what we are

We not blood, but we are

We stayed solid, we stayed strong

We need each other, more than we know

I ain't ever have a brother or a sister

Just friends who grew closer every minute

I ain't never have to grow up with a sibling Fighting battles on my own in my room, it get daunting

Never had friends, had fam since day one

Had mans who got my back if you say some

If you disrespect them, I'ma let bullets come rain down

Spray rounds for my fam and hope they do the same now

Cause I been fighting demons

On my own, all alone, in this room I keep thinking

What if I put a piece of cold chrome to my brain

I get these thoughts every weekend

I feel weaker, I need to speak up

I need help shit, but I don't seek it

I feel stuck shit, I feel beat up

I pray to God I find a way to start healing

I know, what we are

We not blood, but we are

We stayed solid, we stayed strong

We need each other, more than we know

How you supposed to be sis, but I ain't heard from you since

I was at my lowest low, you just left me for dead

Wanted me at your birthday, and I wanted to attend

But I was broker than broke, beyond negative in my chase

Credit cards maxed out, got two or three dollars in my wallet pouch

And you was worried bout how I ain't show up

When honestly, I was thinking bout this life and how I want it out

Almost wasn't even breathing for your birthday Couldn't even get out of bed, you thought that'd be the first day

You don't know half the shit I was dealing with

Dealing with my consciousness, fighting fucking demons

I don't even know where time had went

And now you're back turned, I get it, I got it

Now I won't be a problem, just forget I exist

I almost didn't so copy, just live in a world

That was always the reality

I know, what we are

We not blood, no we aren't

We stayed solid, we stayed strong

Until we didn't, but no love is lost

I have a couple bros left that I can count on one hand

And the ones who still here, they'll forever be my mans

I was sleeping on my bros floor, depression beat my ass

He don't even know, he almost found me hanging from the fan

But nah, I'm stronger than that

He did more than he knows and I can't thank him for that

I'll always be in debt, I'm more thankful for that

And his fam gon' get a check for every night I done spent

And my brothers had my back, every time that I fell

So many gave up on me, so I gave up on myself Had a couple people left, kept me fighting for real

Did you forget who you are, and all the things that you built

Shit, you might be right

Only reason I'm still breathing is cause my guys

And my girl too, she kept me sane and alive

And made sure I ate it, and stayed awake just to grind

I know, what we are

We not blood, but we are

We stayed solid, we stayed strong

We need each other, more than we know

I have a couple bros left that I can count on one hand

And the ones who still here, they'll forever be my mans