Father Lyrics

They say time heals all but I don't believe it

This pain that I'm feeling I doubt it'll ever leave me

Because I wasn't there for you in your time of need

I Should of never have left I should of stayed that whole week

Even if it was your time at least I would of been there

By your side trying to get you to smile

Who knows my presence might of even been enough

To keep you fighting for a while longer you know what's fucked

I had a nightmare about this completely dismissed it

Half a decade ago but that imagine was always vivid

Never thought our family live it It felt so surreal

Love to hear you where optimistic threw out that day But that's is you

Heart of gold rarer still the purest of all stones

If i can be half the man you are believe me I'ma glow

Brighter then any star circling our solar system

Everything happens for a reason but this I ain't getting

If there's such thing as the after life the spirit world

I know your looking down us we'll do you proud

That's right we'll do you proud that's right we'll do you proud 

That's right that's right

If there's such thing as the after life the spirit world

I know your looking down us we'll do you proud

That's right we'll do you proud that's right we'll do you proud 

That's right that's right

Can't believe my little brother called me saying you might die

Replied I was close stayed calm on the line

But as soon as he cut off I freaked the fuck up

Began hyperventilating I physically fell paralyzed

The sheer terror in my mind raced to my heart

I've never been so scared never felt so brittle

That hellish nightmare kept replaying in my mental

I'm whispering it's not fair

Trying to grasp my composure and the situation

Our family is facing my rage is inflaming

I didn't help that I fucking missed the train fam

On the switch over my brain ticked over

The world just crumbled The deja-vu was stronger

Why would she divorce you you've always been humble

Supportive loyal a real gentleman

This don't make any sense na this can't be the end

If there's such thing as the after life the spirit world

I know your looking down us we'll do you proud

That's right we'll do you proud that's right we'll do you proud 

That's right that's right

If there's such thing as the after life the spirit world

I know your looking down us we'll do you proud

That's right we'll do you proud that's right we'll do you proud 

That's right that's right

After an agonizing twenty minutes for a three minute journey

Which never felt so long before the Seconds turned to century's

Eventually I got to yours trying to block out the thought

Of reality without you but her perspective was

As I approached the front door

Saw my brother standing there I asked him what's going on

Sorry say that again uh-uh no he not

You thought I broke down earlier well this was disintegration

Passed it's highest level the numbness was insensible

If I could switch places I would do

But you wouldn't that would you you'd tell me stay strong

Not to blame myself I love you very much son

That goes for the both of you you guys are my world

Look after your mum make sure she lives well

And that's what will do no question ask

I vow from this day to get my ass in check

Every move that I make will be calculated step

Toward success no what no more half heartedness

Can't be asked to ass around exercising excuses

Executing my downfall destroying my future

You raised us better then that why would I disregard your nurturing

Especially now could never doubt your integrity

As a human been and as a father especially

That why I've got to do this I refuse to disappoint you

If there's such thing as the after life the spirit world

I know your looking down us we'll do you proud

That's right we'll do you proud that's right we'll do you proud 

That's right that's right

If there's such thing as the after life the spirit world

I know your looking down us we'll do you proud

That's right we'll do you proud that's right we'll do you proud 

That's right that's right