numb Lyrics

I've been feeling numb

If I imagine I do it then I know that my mom

Would be sad but the truth is that I'm just fucking done

I can't feel nothing no more nah I'm just overcome

With sadness and anxiety yeah that's all I feel

I don't know a part of me that ever fucking heals

Yeah they say it gets better but that's not fucking real

I'm still stuck in my cellar I cannot even feel

Anything when I sell her the lies I got a deal

With myself I wouldn't do it but look at me kneel

Already had an attempt but I couldn't close the deal

Now I'm standing empty handed life it feels so surreal

I tried pills but they didn't work

And a week ago I overdosed it didn't work

Not even comatose it didn't hurt

Maybe next time I'll do it double dose that shit gon hurt

Got no real reason why I'm still here

I want to see how far down I can go before steer

Off this cliff and I go for the spear

Cause like fuck it I gotta die I can't just be near

I'm trynna make myself as miserable as possible so I can just let go

Sleep depriving myself trynna let my feelings take control

Am I dying or living well I don't even fucking know

I'm not trynna make it home

Nah I'm going to the bridge

And I'm climbing up that shit

Watch me standing on the brink

Full of pills I cannot think