ritual Lyrics

It's difficult

I'm trynna stick to my ritual

But all these thoughts they be telling me literally

To go to the darkness and not go to sleep

To not care about it and just let it be

It's been six months since that I've been deceased

Don't feel alive and I don't wanna breath

Can't see me happy I can't see no peace

War in my head it left scars where I bleed

I don't feel hunger I don't wanna eat

I'm making songs yeah to cope with the heat

Fire around me, want water to drown me

Cause hell is where I be

I don't see no

Fucking fish like nemo

What the fuck is this I behold

Yeah I got what I wished a sea oh

But now I drown in this shit, lord behold

I never prayed is that it? That's weak yo

I don't believe and that's it, can't see no

Way that you really exist like jezz no HA

Cause

I don't believe it because I face all these demons

Nah I can never conceive it, and nah don't lie

If you're omnipotent, you're not good and it's evident

Like yeah look at the evidence, I got no sign

I don't believe it nah if I can't even see it

Spending my life till completed, preparing for my death

After life yeah that's all fine yes

On my chest

Write, rest in peace

Down in hell, I'll feel at home at least

Down in hell I might choke the beast

That has hold of me

Was this supposed to be

Just some way to get my anger up?

Oh well too bad cause my anchor is stuck

At the bottom of the ocean you can thank the stuff

That made me suppress my emotion I'm blank as fuck

Is it all the pills or depression that's acting up

I sorta wanna kill many seconds with random stuff ah

Music be blasting so I can never catch a thought ah

Trynna stay busy but in the end it's not enough nah

I don't really like talking about it

Cause every time that I do I got a voice that's haunting me it's loud it's

Telling me that I'm a bad person, I shouldn't burden everyone with this

Ha

So I'm at, this place where I

Don't know how to get space and I

Don't know if I lose trace can I

Find my way back out of this cage that I'm currently in

I don't know where to begin

Do I try and break out or hope someone breaks in

This shit it don't make sense

Can't focus got no lense

I'm stuck in a hole, friends

Don't know when it all ends

I don't really need a couple

People that telling me that I don't really need a bubble

If I don't I flee end up hill

Jump into the sea with double

Weights tied to my feet, my knuckles

Tense why do I need to struggle

Like why am I, so

Screwed up in the head, I got this far, but oh

Number of attempts look like a barcode

Ha, no

That was overboard but so am I