it's not u, it's me Lyrics

I never thought I'd be someone

To make the night about myself

I float

I just float

I trace your stories with my brush

I fill in your blanks with words of love

I float

I just float

Over the fields at home

Or the mountains I've made friends with

Floating

But I'm still floating

I'll tie the balloons to a rock

Call you my anchor, pause the clock

I float

I just float

Dear you,

Whoever you are at the moment

I'm sorry if you feel like I'm pinning this on you

Not that you know

But if you did know you might be

Overwhelmed

No one deserves to hold that kind of responsibility

And as lovely as you are

And as much as I wanna hold hands with you in the dark

It's not you

It's me

I gotta fall in love with myself first

Or at least stop hating myself first

And you might fade from my life

That's okay

Because if I ever stop floating

It might be all about someone else

Someone new

Because after all

It's not

You

It's me

Ignoring you means that I care

Standing near you I smell your hair I float

I just float

I taped on a smile, changed my clothes

What I think when I see you no one knows

I float

I just float

I'll be seventeen for the summer

Make myself my own lover

Floating

But I'm still floating

I'll tie the balloons to a rock

Call you my anchor, pause the clock

I float

I just float