out of spite Lyrics

I think I'm gonna fuck up every single thing in my life

Know that I'm a stuck up, everything I do is out of spite

I know that my luck's up, running out of reasons to try

I just need me one cup, looking for a reason to die

Lately been on my own, and I walk this lone road

I wear my heart on my sleeve, she said I'm getting too cold

You say that I'm toxic, selfish, oh well that's just how it goes

Keep making assumptions about me, look at you what do you know

And lately I been feeling better than ever

We don't talk anymore but maybe one day I'll write you a letter

And time goes on and the bond we had continues to sever

Yeah I guess I wish I never met her

You say one thing and do another

See the cracks, I see the bluffer

Too far gone, I'm under covers

Know that you want me to suffer

I look at you, I look at my reflection and I hate it

I don't know the last time I felt good emotion, heart's so vacant

Like woah, woah, I'm moving so slow

Take a pill I'm gone, I just do it all to cope

I'm just losing myself time and time again, I'm losing hope

Maybe one day I can really love again, reap what I sow

Like

What you really want from me, begging for my attention

(I know that I) love you and I hate you, got me torn over this tension

(Feels like you're just) using me, these memories are stuck in my retention

(Tryna get you) out of my head but I still see you in my mentions

I think I'm gonna fuck up every single thing in my life

Know that I'm a stuck up, everything I do is out of spite

I know that my luck's up, running out of reasons to try

I just need me one cup, looking for a reason to die

I think I'm gonna fuck up every single thing in my life

Know that I'm a stuck up, everything I do is out of spite

I know that my luck's up, running out of reasons to try

I just need me one cup, looking for a reason to die

Lately been on my own, and I walk this lone road

I wear my heart on my sleeve, she said I'm getting too cold

You say that I'm toxic, selfish, oh well that's just how it goes

Keep making assumptions about me, look at you what do you know

Lately been on my own, and I walk this lone road

I wear my heart on my sleeve, she said I'm getting too cold

You say that I'm toxic, selfish, oh well that's just how it goes

Keep making assumptions about me, look at you what do you know

And I've been doing better

Shoutout to my friends because without them I would never

Be in this position so for them I'ma be better

Fuck the opposition I'ma go up, go getter