Mind The Pain ft. Rivilin Lyrics

I'm walking down this path of bodies

Screaming with every step

The guilt from suicide attempts be scratching at my head

I'm a mess

I am blessed

And I cannot fucking stress

That if I pulled a trigger years ago I would've missed the best

Time of my life

I see a glimpse of the light

I am healing from the trauma that's engrained in the mind

I won the fentanyl roulette while watching my brother die

I got problems in my head but I be healing with time

So I mind the pain

And mute the thoughts

Lately

The future bright, my past is dark

Shady, the moon is lit, I feel alive

Safety

This weight on me, it's lightening

So I mind the pain

And mute the thoughts

Lately

The future bright, my past is dark

Shady, the moon is lit, I feel alive

Safety

This weight on me, it's lightening

So won't you won't you take me apart

It's just this journey is so long im missing a heart

It's just anxiety, leaves me here in the dark

We close our doors to our homes as we don't give a fuck

But we just know that it's not good for any of us

I watch my friends giving up said that they weren't enough

It's like this life that you love is just a bit fucked up

I fucking love it, I hate it, I can't fucking take this anymore

It's when you find the city's dark as the abyss always glaring at your back

Waiting for the opportunity when your mind fades to black

Shove a knife into your spleen, your immune systems a fiend

Cut it out, cut it out, I know they love to hear my screams

Struggle up on my feet this world's crumbling over me

Watch despair in my eyes fill my veins up with your lies

These friends said they had my side, where were they I nearly died

In that burnt house on the hill, the sky opened up, had his fill

I tried to climb down but I fell, these rocks filled with laughter they tell

Stories of how I broke my bones and left me to struggle alone

Watch the crows just pick at me, open up my insides let them feed

What's left of my aspirations, don't dig deep im feeling anxious

Is this what it's like down in hell, maybe i'm here I couldn't tell

I'm already just suffering the light above is smothering

The way I want to talk and breathe maybe this is a sign to leave

And just let go of everyone who only loves with deciete

So won't you won't you take me apart

It's just this journey is so long im missing a heart

It's just anxiety, leaves me here in the dark

We close our doors to our homes as we don't give a fuck

But we just know that it's not good for any of us

I watch my friends giving up said that they weren't enough

It's like this life that you love is just a bit fucked up

I fucking love it, I hate it, I can't fucking take this anymore